An update....

Wondering why i've not updated my blogs for weeks already? Well, actually, i faced some problems & i guess it's finally over for now.. yet, another task is coming for me that is the mid-year 'xam. I guess most of the schoolie should have face the same problem right now... yes, that's preparing for it... that even explains the reason why i've no time for my updates right?! but now, i'm able to update it coz i wanna take a breather from reading. my head is killing me right now.

oh, so, why am i not updating my blog last 2 weeks? i should give an answer, actually, i failed my driving exam twice... & i'm totally pissed off that i barely have the moods to do anything..(excluding studying). Each time repeating it, i'll have to pay RM100... that means i've spent RM200 overall just for repeating the stupid exam. Yes, you'll ask me why i failed... I think it's better that i skip the explanation & stick to the conclusion... i sucks at following easy laws... to those who want to take driving license sooner or later, my advise that is... please, be extra concern & careful, they want you to fail more than pass.. in a positive meaning, they're extremely strict...

Anyway, finally... i passed my driving exam... I'm waiting for them to process my license now.. hehehe. Alright then, i guess that's all. (i'll show the pic of the license next time)

Untitled.....

I know I should have never exist,
I know I should have never appear in anyone's sight,
I know I should have never attempt for that feeling,
I know I should have never said that I'm fine,
I know I should have never think of it,
I know I should have never lie to myself,
I know I should have never betray myself,
I know I should have never act emotional;
However, what I'm doing now makes me look emo,
I know I should have never think too much,
I know I should have never wet my eyes.

But then,
I never think of why i exist, I just LIVE IT,
I never make myself invisible,
I never thought of not thinking that feeling,
I never thought of I will give up easily,
I never thought of forgetting it,
I never lie to myself to deny the fate,
I never betray myself to make me look stupid,
I never act emotional to drag others attention,
Just be emo to tell out my feelings,
I never think of that only my life is hard,
I never think that my tears should be shed for nothing.

Day Of 1st April... Never the same....

Wondering why it's been so long since the last time i update my blog?!
Heh~ faced some problem recently that i cant get my ass off from my trouble.
So many things to do, that i got time to do my work, got no time to die...
Well, it's not really serious work actually, it's just that i'm such a lazy ass to work hard.
Passing homework season that is... need to work out all the homework that i miss out before this... especially my sejarah.. the book is still blank until now. It's like nearly untouched(didn't even bring it to school). SPM nearing & i'm getting lazier & lazier... exam sucks deeply as well... sigh.

I can feel like my time is up.... I'm feeling so suffocated.... Rather complaining... I guess I'll just rush out for my work now... update later~

What If someday.....

There's something that is been keeping me in wonder...
Ermmm, well, i don't really know how to describe my feeling but this is the outcome that i've been thinking of.
What if one day.... I'm not in this world anymore, how could my friends in the net would know bout it? Who gonna open my friendster or my Blog to announce my loss? It's a real negative thoughts somehow which a normal teenager like me shouldn't be thinking much about ahahaha.
I'll just hafta live the day i have left.

Anyway, it's time for me to grab my "P" license... shall I purchase the guarantee?? argh, I'm worried that the JPJ fella might not hav the mood on that day. I'll hafta pay another RM100 if i retake the exam... this really bugs me... the guarantee is RM150... worth it or not? friends, if any of you are reading this, kindly leave your suggestion 'kay.

Drama competition is nearing the edge already~ Wish me luck eh!











The girl that i'll die for!

Sigh, The Avalanche of WORK!!

Oh NO, at the beginning of the holiday, i thought that i'll be busy with my holidays like going shopping, playing games & go tackle girls! however, now the holiday is bout to end & i still haven't done anything much. everyday just stay at house sleeping during the afternoon till evening. Totally exhausted because of Drama~! Now, my throat feeling sore already... sigh, the competition of the drama is only 2 weeks away. Can i manage to handle it?!

Not Forget to mention.... My HOMEWORKS!! None of it are touched.... my bags remains the same place since last week. Anyway, who else gonna touch the homeworks anyway... everyone is busy with their holidays isn't it?! (my thoughts^^)

Is This... My Redemption?

Sigh, Today is the day last year fellas collect their SPM results & i get to be there(coincidence) to see them took their results on spot.
Most of them cried, there are even some of them who haven't take it already "whiten" up their face.

It's like they could vomit anytime~ hey, why didn't i felt that way last time when i took my PMR result.... maybe some people are too stress. As for me, maybe i'm too relax which is not a good thing but i still doesn't think that i should be tighten up myself during the day of the results is release. After all, it's what I've done. nothing can be change right. So, for those who are going to take any results of any exam, cheer up yourself & think positive! Make yourself comfortable & never regret whatever your result might be. You've do what you got to do. Even if the result is bad, it's not end of your life, wipe your "stupid" tears & keep on moving.
P/S - At the same time, I'm actually trying to calm myself with my own advice.

First Semester Of Holiday! YAHOO!!...

End of the first sem test also means the beginning of the first sem HOLIDAY!!
Yahoooooo~ but... i got no idea how to spend it well, sigh... maybe i'll ask some friend to hang out.
Since there's many new release movies, i might visit the cinema as well eh.
However, what movie to watch neh?!! ahahaha... i find out that i'm like a trouble-finder nia~ or shud said, trouble-find-me.

Why i say so? i just broke my spectacles!! sigh, the sad thing that is, i don't know how was it broke.
I woke up & i was bout to wore my spec & i realised that the the right part was nowhere..
My spec was a few cm from me coz i place it on a chair along wif my handphone. so, i couldn't possibly step on it coz it was not on the floor, it was on the chair!!... nyway, luckily i have a spare spec ahaha~ if not, i couldn't drive today.

Yeap! just finished another driving class~ another 2 more class i can go take for the JPJ test, but i soon found out a prob... do i have to "treat" that person coffee?... I still need to reconsider bout whether to "treat" or not...sigh~ somehow, i know my driving skill is way okay than my first experience oooo~!