Something is stabbing from inside...

This date should be remarkable for me though I know such a day is nothing but right now, all that I could think of is more than nothing.... It's simply empty... voids... black holes... Something is preventing me to rest, something is preventing me to slumber into my dreams.. What is wrong with me? Why is everything within me started to work slower than they used to be... the time that was tick-tocking... how many times has it working on..? It's been countless in my head but when I take a look at the clock... It had only passed 15minutes...

Is the time really being controlled by my emotions...?
What is my emotion right now....?
Why is my emotion not here with me....?
Why am I feeling so lost when I stare to the no-body in the mirror....?
Who is the person who I stared so long but still couldn't smile back at me....?
Who is the man beyond the mirror....?
Is it really me....?
Is it just a person wearing a mask to show to others that he is not a puppet....?
Was my feelings all these days was just an adaption from other people's emotion....?
Was everything that I had been through....isn't who I've been through....?

Then, who is the real me.... what do I really want...?
As I figuring this... I shall present you all this song...
Naitomea - Nothing you lose

Let's Back To Square One

One of the songs of Naitomea new released album : Chronic.
Though you could really say to me that "It's in japanese and I don't even understand a thing he sang".
If you would give me a second to make things clear that...
"Seeing is never efficient. How it feels that matters".
Same like when you're thinking of loving someone right, your eyes could drag you to see many attractive person across your life but somehow, it's your feeling that will tell you who should be more lovable than the others right.
And when I'm listening to this song, I have a good feeling about this song.(Same like the other songs). Omg, This might be the band that I've admired the longest among most of the band I've listened to before this. Too bad that I've found out not a lot of people know them because their album are no where to be found in Malaysia T-T, well, I'm walking the "side-ways" I guess~?

王力宏 - Kiss Goodbye

I can do it...Even If I Can't, I Have to...

Few weeks has pass by me and then only I realise I've stop writing my blog for quite some time. Well, it was really hard to get my time move on when I'm bound to a world of lost. However, I think I'm moving out from it right now, to seek for a better future and better life.
Anyhow, study life in college was like....
Speechless~ I doesn't know how to tell out this funny feeling but then I get really "kuai lan" lor even it's just after 3 weeks in college. I started to fall asleep in some damn boring lecture class(and just recently I skipped one lecture class) and in some boring tutorial class, I'll ask many question to the teacher since he himself was like got nothing to teach, if I didn't ask, I high possibly won't get to learn what he's trying to teach... And right now~ gained quite a lot of attention from the dudes ahaha~ I'll always disturb them in a good way of course.. Somehow, still no luck with the girls, no idea what kind of conversation to start with.. usually they just ask me about the studies and mostly the talks won't even last longer than 1 minute~
aw how sad~

Oh well, what to do, Just live on, no matter how much I whine, time will still do it's tick and tocks~

"A true Devil is always hidden behind the Angel's Wings"


Bonus: Who likely do you think this girl is? My friend? My Sister(?) ? My current girlfriend? My cousin? Or My Niece? ^^

Naitomea - Can You Do It?

An Act Of Forget...

I felt cold.. Is my blood still flowing fast in my veins or is it that my heart itself had putting me into a state where there's no real reality infront of me? Was everything merely just an illusion or just my imagination..
It's really been quite long that I have my best sleep in the night... I felt very uncomfortable with sleep... My mind doesn't allow me to slumber into my dream by forcing me to be awake all night.. I know my health is on threat right now if things keep on being the way it is. However, there's not a thing I can do.. It's insomnia, though people would say insomnia is for those people who had many stress in life but when I'm so easy-taking though with some complications, I still can hang on.
Or was it I'm being too emotional for what had happened to me...?
bah!! I guaranteed I'm not being emotional!!
So... why still can't I have a good night sleep even though I'm mentally(i think) and physically ok?..

Sigh... troublesome!

Final Fantasy VII : Advent Children Complete

Just done finishing the whole mirror-downloading of this movie which cost bout 1GB+, though, from some certain parts that i've viewed through, i find it out that this wont be a disappointment and I really felt that I'm going to watch this another more of 100 times... I can memorise the dialogue already.. lol...


Anyway, I've done some exercise today, it's been quite some times since the last time I do exercise and right now when I finally get to do it, it's undeniable that I'm rather satisfied...Somehow, what makes me keep running when I could stop moving forward anytime I want...
What's giving me the purpose to keep holding on, I felt like an empty vessel already...there's nothing at all exist in me..

Could anyone...get me, out of this cipher??...