Nightmare ナ イ ト メ ア [Naitomea] - Nothing You Lose

kurayami no tochuu mi ni wa mienai nani ka ni oboefuruete iru
yowai jibun ni dare mo te wo sashinoberu mono wa nai kodoku ni naita

nando mo tsuyoku negatte mo
risou te ni irerarezu

kono karada mo kono kokoro mo kowareru hodo no
motto kurushimasete
mezame no toki wa chikai
mada itami wo kanjireru nara tsuyoku nareru sa
There is nothing you lose
inochi no hi ga kieta toshite mo

ikutsu kono omoi kanjou ni madowasarete sugoshite ita
kono mi yudanete

kono karada mo kono kokoro mo kowareru hodo no
motto kurushimasete
mezame no toki wa chikai
mada itami wo kanjireru nara tsuyoku nareru sa
There is nothing you lose
inochi no hi ga kieta toshite mo

hitsuyou no nai mono wo sutete
kurushimi no gisei wo haraou
kagayakeru ashiato wo
kono basho ni nokoseru hi made

kore kara saki machikamaeteru itami wo subete
mou uketomeyou
furikaeru koto wa nai
mada itami wo kanjireru nara tsuyoku nareru hazu sa
There is nothing you lose
tatoe kono mi ga hateyou tomo

kono kokoro kowarete mo
tsukamitoru sono hi made

There is nothing you lose..

*Ripped from the song Nothing You Lose by Naitomea*

By the way of darkness,
Frightened and trembling because of something I can't see,
I'm weak,
Nobody holds out their hand,
I cry alone;
Even if you wish many times strongly,
A dream, you can't hold it with your hands.

Because this heart and body is broken,
They are made to suffer,
It is almost time to wake up,
It is possible to get stronger if pain can still be felt
There is nothing you lose,
even if the light goes out.

Many desires,
they were confused by emotions of the time passed,
I entrust this body to you;
Looking up only to heavens
for a long time since I was very young.

Because this heart and body is broken,
They are made to suffer,
It is almost time to wake up,
It is possible to get stronger if pain can still be felt
There is nothing you lose,
even if the light goes out.

Let us throw away the things we don't need,
and pay the sacrifice of suffering,
those footprints shine,
until that day can be left in this place.

All of the pain of waiting for the future, after this...
Let us catch it already,
There's nothing to look back on,
It is possible to get stronger if pain can still be felt,
There is nothing you lose,
even if this body ends.
I grab onto it, until that day.

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Dedicated to my friends who faced their hardships on their life.
To tell all of you that life must go on no matter how hard it would be because life is only once. So am I... We'll be sad and broke down anytime, anywhere but we must keep stand up no matter how many times we're down.. We must do it even if we think we can't.. A life will always go through pain and then there will only be happiness..
There's nothing you lose if you keep endure the pain and urge yourself to move on..
Have a nice day~!!

Stay the same.. Be it..

Yesterday evening.. My classmates help me made a fortune-telling through her Besta(electronic dictionary) which is installed with those kind of fortune-telling programs.
Well, that information is according to the fortune-telling book de so they play it quite seriously.
They asked bout my date of birth and time of birth.Well, luckily i remembered what time i was born..( i just give out my D.O.B and T.O.B according to English Calendar) coz my mom said it was suppose to follow the Chinese de..

Anyhow, my fortune was...
*My friends translated it for me coz it's in mandarin

"I'll meet up with a lot of special people (people that will influences my life I assume)"
That means... I'll be affected or affect a lot of person to make them someone or be someone that they made me.. I guess something like that~

then the 2nd thing...

"My life is a tough life, in other words, what I tend to do will turn out to be nothing and every effort will lay to waste"
Need not explanation, I think most of you should be able to figure out the fortune above..

Eventually, I didn't felt regretted nor afraid of anything for what I had..
I felt the reading is pretty true for me. I wouldn't have seen so much of life if I would have a better life (I think so...). I've begin to appreciate life more and tried my best to cherish what is still with me.. Be it silently...

Though happiness might not stay with me forever but as long, I can be there with the ones that need me and let them know that "You're not alone", it's enough for me.
Even if there's a lot of pain that I'll need to face, I'll try my best to endure..

I'm not dreaming to be hero nor someone who tend to be special than others.. It's just that I felt I'm the kind of person who found happiness through other's happy life and not my own.. just yet.. I'm just a normal mortal but I want to do the impossible too..

"If it isn't me to enter hell, who else would attempt to?"
(Translated from cantonese ; Ngo pat yapp tei yuk, sui yapp tei yuk)
*P/s I'm not going to die or commit suicide, I just like the way the phrase is

Thanks for accompanying me everyone...!!

Rhythm in my heart

After hearing the song of Li Xiang Lan (李香兰) by Jacky Cheung, I don't know why my heart felt very warm.. maybe it's because of the melody had made me felt very relaxed and it's like the weight that's on my heart had been lifted slightly..

I can breath again.. It's really a great song though I can't really understand the proper meaning of the song but as long it's a great song, what else matters?
Come on, I'm just a few more distance away from completion...
1 more months to exam and few more moments to realise it's the end of 2009

As long everyone can be happy.. whether what I would be, it's not important anymore...
There's always something that you can never see in me
but then it's better to be like this..
only to know I'm mysterious to your eyes~

Jacky Cheung - 李香兰

A very beautiful and sweet song~

Ouchy days...*yawn*

What should I curse for what had happened to me these days huh? First day came back to Setapak, I had this otak-otak burger for my supper (have no idea why I bought it) and the next day it made me non-stop burping, plus, my stomach felt unwell almost the whole day and today...
I'm having slight diarrhea and now, even headache.. lol I know it's about 2am already and I'm still typing this, I couldn't sleep... my heart is not feeling that comfortable..
There's not a moment I'm not recalling those days.. I can lift it, I can let it go too but my memories doesn't say so.. almost everything that occur around me bounce me the past.. I tried not too think bout it anymore but... sigh,it's reckless to say it anymore..

Anyway, these days, I've been trying a lot of IQ question on my friends (which I thought of as a way for me to make myself laugh) because when I see them tried their best to figure out my answer is funny but somehow.. it's not that easy to put away that thoughts. Somehow, I ain't stopping myself to believe I could do it..

As I had done many impossibilities that I've told myself I couldn't do it..
Now I'm making myself to the fullest.. it's at least an attempt..
and now, I just want to be happy.. even if I have to carve a smiley face on my forgone expression~

林峰 - 愛不疚