It's Not Over...sigh...

OVERDRIVE~!!

Oh great, well ladies and gentlemen,firstly first, I think you people must have thought tht I've stopped blogging since i left my blog rot here for so long without even a slightest touch lay on it.In fact, for your all information, I just came back from PLKN few weeks ago and... I broke my hand. Not entirely broke though, just a quite serious fracture which causes the bones of my hand look weird~ It's on my little finger palm side bone(i dunno how to explain it clearly,so,just try to imagine it k)~
How it happened, it was quite a long story eh, but I'll try to make it short somehow.

So, I entered a CQC(close-quarter-combat) presentation and I'm specialised in breaking rooftop bricks.. Wait a min, I know what's in your mind tht is i failed to break the bricks and broke my finger right?? nah, it's not like that~ It was my second presentation on that very day (10th March, one day before leaving PLKN) and we had a closing ceremony and we the CQC team was required to present again and so... the second time i break the bricks, it was a success and I got it OVERDRIVE, as i punched through the bricks,my hand straight landed on the cement ground and then... wahlaaa, i broke my deary hand.

Somehow, it was not pain at all,I realised something wrong with my hand when i punched through it and i have a quick look and then i shouted "What the F***K!!",something is funny bout my hand!! lol~!However,I able to maintain my coolness and leave the field in a stylish way (ahahaha!!) and I straight rush to my teacher,he was smiling to me telling me that it was a great show & when i showed him my hand...He was jammed a while...and i told him again "cikgu,tangan dah patah" (lol!!). Then, he straight told me to go to medic.

So, ya~ i broke my finger...and i gave those dudes who was trying to relocate my bone quite a shock... i showed no pain emotion cause i was smiling(?!!). My dormitory teacher had his mouth wide opened in a shocking way when i asked him to take my picture of my hand before it was bandaged (but he doesn't wan to take the pic though).So, I sufferred 3weeks of rashes pain in my hand instead of my broken bone ache...

Today was suppose to unbandage my hand and i thought my hand was fine already but somehow,it is still in pain and through the X-ray,the fracture is still there...(dammit!!),so the doctor just said to me,you need to reput the cement(oh hell yea...dammit!).

Then right now...Hafta wait for another 2 more weeks, hopefully it'll get fine by then though..
Will have more update soon...

What's my Vision... What's my Purpose to be still ALIVE?

The end of the "war"... I felt like I've lost part of my reason to live as well.
Maybe,everything was just the very beginning but I'm really not used to living in such way where everyday doing the same thing. I'm not looking forward anything like an adventure or something..I just wish I could do something to enhance myself.
Yes, to study, to gain more knowledge, to regain my original purpose since last time:
Leave the bloody school and start on a real rundown of studying of human personality.
Right now, I'll just take my time enjoying a few days of holidays. I've been reading for years of those boring books, they make me sick sigh.

Ahahaha, I sounded like someone who's going to conquer the world or like some nerd talking bout the function of books, cheer up~ I'm still the same me after all this. hehehe
A'ight, I'll drop off another song from my fav band (though i know most of you wouldnt like it) as a display~~

Nightmare - Naked Love

Perak here I come....

Yeap... to any of you that ar going to miss me.. it's time to miss me now kay.
i'll be sent to Perak soon. very soon.
it was the PLKN thingy..
the letter that they sent to me looks really encouraging ya... everything is included in there... oh my goodness.. i'll try to do some research on it when i have the ample time ya.
right now.. deal wif spm first ahahah!!

Is FOREVER a word based on the word NONSENSE?

i really dont know what is going on with all those people around me that held the name of love.
what? is love some kind of game for you all?!
somehow, i've never expected anything out of u all... after all, we're amateurs but hey, i'm always exempted from you all.. really~!

I'm not saying i could do better in love stuff see.. i know i have no experience in love and after all this, i'm still single. but when i see the deeds of u all..
was it like must be guys to hurt girls in a relationship? sumore it is my friend?? some of them ar the victim and some of them are the criminal. were all the good guys slumber in the FOREVER sleep already?

i'm sick of it man~
and i'm praying hard that i must not be like any one of them.
Not the prey and not the predator. and I'll BE OBSERVING all of you as usual~

Let's Dance

Just take some of my time to share music with you all.
It's one of my favorites but i doubt of any of you will listen to this kind of song but I'll share it with you all as well~

Nightmare - Dasei Boogie


~Translated Lyrics~
It's an accident, the figure consciousness' window reflects is printed on my mind
A wave of information keeps shooting my heart
The love found in the crevice is the only language supply of shared time

The pain in my chest desires that, like zero to one
Now I will send this rose to you
Share this thought

I watched a beautiful dream and have forgotten reality
Ringed sentiment of a person living in the virtual world is going around and around
Where will it continue turning around to?

Where are you? (kimi wa doko?)
Where are you?
Where are you?
Where are you?

The thread breaks off but your words are saved, the Protocol has disappeared
The capacity of sadness overflows, my heart gets wet
I watched a beautiful dream and have forgot reality
Ringed sentiment temples circumference of a person living in the virtual world
It repeats itself again even if I stop

Washing over, words are put in order, I seek a moment of love
Stretched around the inside of the net, a mass of desire
The meaning of your words is equal to nothing

En garde...

oh well, PMR going to end soon and as PMR ends, all the SPMrians shud be ready their ass to be kicked coz ya, it's going to appear and become clear to all of us that this is the last year of us being in school and i absolutely hate school (trust me on this).
but then, think of it, when it comes to the future, i still will be studying, i still will be meeting wif boot-lickers, backstabbers, cock talker and betrayer. it's the cycle of life but one thing for sure tht i havent met, my ONLY ONE~!!
wahahaha, cant blame me for being desperate to wanna meet my future ONE because these days, all the guys in my gang already have theirs to be wif them. and i'm still single...
duh, they'll just say, my ONE havent show up yet and be patient and then this world got many flower...
it's because they found their flower already tht they say like that?!
aha, ya la, it's true oso but i didnt say i doesnt want to wait what.
there's no dead end for me.. not for something like this of coz~

well, people often ask me that why do i always look sad in my photo, m i emo??
no i'm not, it's just that, hey u urself can see it, i'm alone in the photo,i cant possibly smile alone and if i do smile, it's obvious i forcing myself to smile and it will look awkward.at least i can smile when i'm taking pics wif frens~ i'm not emo, i'm not macho, so there's no point for me acting emo as if i'm cool and hot. why still taking pics?
coz i want to update my friendster's pic~ in other words, for fun.

have tons of funs ya for all the PMRrians and as for the form 4 dudes, open ur eyes widely and take a look at the SPMrians how they suffer now. coz it's u on the chopping block next year.
muahahaha

I'm TAGGED...

Tag Rules:
1. The rules of the games get posted at the beginning.
2. Each player answers the questions about themselves.
3. At the end of the post, the player then tags 5 people and posts their name, then goes to their blogs and leaves a comment, letting them to know they got tagged and to ask them to play and read your blog.

Starting time = 12.48pm
Name = DeeLun
Sisters = No
Brothers = Yes
Shoe size = 7
Where do you live = Seksyen 19, Shah Alam, Selangor
Favorite drink = Coffee
Favorite breakfast = Eggs and breads
Have you been on a plane = Yes
Swam in the ocean = Yes
Fallen asleep in school = Who doesnt?
Broken someone’s heart = Not often though
Fell of your chair = Nope~
Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call = I waited to call someone got lor
Saved e-mails = Nope
What is your room like = boys will always be boys (explain it already)
What is the last thing you ate = KFC

Ever had
Chicken pox = Doesnt remember got or not...
Stitches = Yeap, a few on the head
Broken nose = Nope
Do you believe in love at first sight = It doesn't exist at the first place in my life
Like picnics = Like it but...
Who was the last person you danced with = Dance? nope
Last person who made you smile = Last movie got, but person... i hardly smile

Today did you
Talked to someone you like = Currently nope
Kissed anyone = Of coz not
Get sick = Sore throat, headache..
Talked to an ex = No ex yet.
Missing someone = Engraved no one in heart
Best feeling in the world = Not sure~
Do you sleep with stuffed animals = What if I say yes?!
What’s under your bed = some of my stuffed animals?
What time is it now = 12.57pm

Random

Q: is there a person on your mind right now = Nothing
Q: do you have any siblings = Answered
Q: do you want children = Girl also haven't have, children?
Q: do you smile often = Depends on my mood
Q: do you like your hand-writing = Why not~?
Q: are your toes painted = I'll be gay if i do so
Q: whose bed other than yours would you rather sleep in = I still love my own beds
Q: what colour shirt are you wearing = Black
Q: what were you doing at 7.00 yesterday = Watching Art Of The Devil 2
Q: I can’t wait till = Get OUT FROM SMKS 19
Q: when did you cry last = Last 2 days... watching money not enough 2..so touching~
Q: are you a friendly person = I'm friendly, ya, u can ask danica for the proof.
Q: do you have any pets = Is fish counted as pet?
Q: where is the person you have feelings for right now = santiago de cali
Q: did the last person you held hands with mean anything to you now = my parents hand~ they meant for my existence
Q: do you sleep with the TV on = nope
Q: what are you doing = This the best question of all... what else u think i'm doing?
Q: have you ever crawled to your mother or father = Crawled? sounds like bugs? no i dont
Q: can you handle the truth = I prefer the truth more than Lies
Q: are you closer to your mother or father = both are lovable
Q: who was the last person you cried in front of = Nobody
Q: how many people can you say you’ve really loved = A lot~
Q: do you eat healthy = Yeap...(guess so)
Q: do you still have pictures with you and your ex = I don't have an ex oso
Q: have you ever cried because of something someone said to you = As if i care of what they say..
Q: how often do you go to church = I'm a buddhist =)
Q: if you’re having a bad day, who are you mostly likely to go to = No one
Q: are you loud or quiet most of the times = Depends on my mood
Q: are you confident = sometimes it's confident that drag you into lost in confident... but i do confident

Q: 5 things I was doing ten years ago . . . (1998)

- Schooling in SRKS19
- Not friendly
- Wore the spec for one year already
- Not as cheerful as now
- Sleep with the books (now still the same i guess)

Q: 5 snacks I enjoy

- Roti boy
- Chocolate bar
- Cheezy biscuits
- Famous Amos Cookies
- Ice-cream *It's snack for me ^-^

Q: 5 things I would do if I were a billionaire:

- Donate to the charity
- A car (for family ride)
- A house (it's a promise)
- Buying Share
- Help whoever need my bucks~

Q: 5 of my bad habit:

- Negative Thinking
- Thinking too much
- Easily felt guilty(trying to be heartless here)
- I'm good in lying (believe it or not)
- Lazy too(agree wif danica-chan)

Q: 5 places I’ve lived in:

- My home sweet home
- Melaka,Bukit Katil
- Brisbane, Australia*
- Penang
- Phuket,Thailand* (i've been to here too ya danica)

Q: 5 people tat u tagged:
Everyone who have read this post!! (muahahahaha)