Amano Tsukiko - Koe (Voice)

Tatoeba umi no soko de anata ga ikiteru no nara
Watashi wa nihon no ashi wo kitte sakana ni narou
Fukami e ochiru hodo ni anata ga chikazuku no nara
Hate nai yami wo samayou kage ni nattemo ii

Adeyaka ni tadayou watashi no kagerou
Kanawanai hibi ni oborete ita dake
Anata wa inai
Wakatte iru wakatte iru

Noboru noboru taiyou ga
Watashi no basho wo jouka suru
Aoku kizamu kokuin wo
Nurui nurui kaze ga saratte yuku

Tatoeba kono kotoba ga anata ni todoku no naraba
Watashi no seitai wo toriagete sutetemo ii

Azayaka na kizu wo nakushita ima wo
Nanimokamo ubau anata no ondo wo
Motomete ita motomete ita
Maboroshi demo

Kieru kieru nukumori ga
Watashi no basho wo tsurete yuku
Batsu mo nuguu sono ude ni dakarenagara
Nemuri ni tsukitai

Noboru noboru taiyou ga
Watashi no basho wo jouka suru
Batsu mo nuguu sono ude ni dakarenagara
Nemuritai

Kieru kieru nukumori ga
Watashi no basho wo tsurete yuku
Aoku kizamu kokuin wo
Nurui nurui kaze ga saratte yuku

Mushibande yuku kioku no hahen
Watashi wo fusagu piasu ga tarinai
Wasurete shimau boyakete shimau
Anata no koe ga zattou ni kieru

Mushibande yuku nukeochite yuku
Watashi wo fusagu piasu ga tarinai
Atokata mo naku wasurete shimau
Anata no koe ga zattou ni naru

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If, for example, you lived at the bottom of the sea
Id cut my feet off and become a fish
If I got closer to you the deeper I sank
I wouldnt even mind becoming a shadow that wanders through the endless darkness

My shimmering haze hangs charmingly in the air
I was just drowning in the days that didnt work out
Youre not here
I know that, I know that

As the sun rises and rises
It purifies the place where I am
The warm, warm wind takes away
The blue stamp imprinted on me

If, for example, these words reach you
You can rip out my vocal cords and throw them away

I was longing, longing
To have lost my stinging wounds
And for your warmth to take everything away
Even if it was just a dream

Your warmth is disappearing, disappearing
Taking with it the place where I am
I want to go to sleep wrapped in your arms
That even wipe out my punishment

The sun rises and rises
Purifying the place where I am
I want to sleep wrapped in your arms
That even wipe out my punishment

As your warmth disappears, disappears
It takes away the place where I am
The warm, warm wind takes away
The blue stamp imprinted on me

The pieces of my memories are rotting away
I dont have enough piercings to cover myself
I'm forgetting you, you're fading
Your voice fades into the rabble

They're falling away, they're falling away
I dont have enough piercings to cover myself
I'm forgetting you without a trace
Your voice fades into the rabble

I'm ready for goodbyes...

Nowadays, I felt that my mind have felt so much relieve that I started to think my problems in an more optimistic ways to prevent me to seal myself into the gloomy-prison of my soul.
I've already prepared myself for the worst-case-scenario that might happen to me... No point of avoiding because it will keep haunting me until I barricades my heart from any interaction..

Somehow, I prefer to face it than avoiding, I know what I should do and how I should do it.
Hopefully, I can still make the smile. I've once told one of my friend that, ever since that incident happened, part of the real me has awaken... I just need more pain, more to make it numb, to make me felt painless through an uncertain darkness with no lights shine upon me.

At the same time, maybe she was right too, I was too good... (or maybe weak) to infuse myself with iniquitous. Maybe I'm just merely a 笨小孩 like the song I posted before..Suffered too much emotional pain till I want to run myself in calamity end.. But... Can I ever do it...?

Anyway, recently, my heart been keep having heartache, not the emotional type.. it's the organ..
It hurts from time to time and I can felt that it's pumping real fast...Seems quite the same like my elder brother...Sigh~

柯受良,劉德華,吳宗憲 - 笨小孩

Watch my time passes....

Sigh, another few more days where I'm doing nothing but sitting at home wasting my life time... Really wish that I could save the time which passes for nothing and use it when I really need it in the future time...
Like you know, I can fasten the time and once the I reach to the future where I wanted, I stop at there, then when I need the time, I can use back the time I've forwarded before this to freeze the whole world time... (by this sentence, maybe you should start dialing emergency numbers for me).
oh well, if everyone have the might, the really do wanna imagine for a special power for themselves ain't it? However, this kind of dream are just to entertain your stressful brain TEMPORARY..
If you really eager that it will happen, it'll be my pleasure to dial the emergency number for you then.. I know I did say nothing is impossible but there's a limit for everything especially imagination a'ight~

So, what kind of superpowers do you have in mind which you think might come in handy for you in your life?
You could just use some of your really-free-good-for-nothing time to think of it~
and you might as well share it with me kay ahahaha~

P/S - I know this sucks, I never deny I'm stupid....
nor smart of coz~

Naitomea - Star[K]night

kono sora ni te wo nobashite mo
todoku koto no nai shin kirou
boku no senaka no oreta tsubasa
mukashi no you ni tobezu ni

yume wo motome jiyuu wo oi motometeta
hakanai kaze ni yurare

ano toki kimi ga ushi natta mono wa
yozora no mukou no hoshi ni natta
nurashita hoho wa itsuka kawaite
kitto habatakeru kara

boku no kokoro hitori de aruiteru
ikiru itami ni taete

ano toki kimi ga ushi natta mono wa
yozora no mukou no hoshi ni natta
nurashita hoho wa itsuka kawaite
kitto habatakeru kara

kokoro no oku ni sumi tsuite iru
kanashimi wo nuguisatte
yoru wo tsukinuke sora wo tsukinuke
doko made mo tonde yuketara

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When I extend my hand into this night sky
I can't reach the mirage
The wings were ripped off my back
Without them I can't fly to the past

I pursued freedom in search of a dream
Shaking in empty wind

The thing that you lost at that time
It became a star of the night sky over there
Wet cheeks are now dry
Because I can flap now

I walk with one heart of mine
Bearing a pain to live

It lives in the depths of my heart
I wipe out the sorrow that it leaves
piercing through the empty night sky
Where it'll able to fly forever,

Keep It Moving...!!

Time time keep on flowing will you...I'm tired of waiting you to pass by day by day...
Though I felt like I'm wasting my daily time just by sleeping, online-ing,eating and doing nothing.
I think there're spore will be growing around me if I keep myself accommodate at home doing nothing at all. Lol... thought of exercising like how I used to.. but I just don't have the feeling to do it... Felt like want to do it when I go to TARC there (I realise there got some gym instrument). I'm sure I can make a good use of it at there~ hehe.
I want to be strong and energetic~ ohohoho and live a healthy life as well.
Life is just once,take it, live it, and play it well ahaha~
All the heartbrokens,pains,worries and sorrows can be thrown to the shining star at the very night~
Yes, who say can't? Nothing Is Impossible what... not meh??

張學友 - 煩惱歌