Looking at the man in the mirror...

The King of Pops, Michael Jackson had fallen out from the list of his convictions...
Everyone was hoping that he would rest in peace...
Is it really possible for someone to rest in peace while so many problems had run through him...
Can someone sleep in a well mannered when they had so many problems running through their mind...?
Death isn't the best way to run from problem, you just run out from you life.

As a reflection, I'll just bound to this chance to change my life once more..
This would be the 3rd time I make a change.
What kind of personality will I equip to myself this time?
Simple, not the usual me anymore...
still treating people the same way but the main idea that is...
I doesn't want anyone to know what's hidden within me.. that should spice things up a bit dont they.
Mysteries thrills everyone~
A tribute for My lifetime favourite singer, Michael Jackson, Man in the mirror. This songs meant so much for me, especially now.



Lyrics~
I'm Gonna Make A Change,
For Once In My Life
It's Gonna Feel Real Good,
Gonna Make A Difference
Gonna Make It Right . . .

As I, Turn Up The Collar On My
Favourite Winter Coat
This Wind Is Blowin' My Mind
I See The Kids In The Street,
With Not Enough To Eat
Who Am I, To Be Blind?
Pretending Not To See
Their Needs
A Summer's Disregard,
A Broken Bottle Top
And A One Man's Soul
They Follow Each Other On
The Wind Ya' Know
'Cause They Got Nowhere
To Go
That's Why I Want You To
Know

I'm Starting With The Man In
The Mirror
I'm Asking Him To Change
His Ways
And No Message Could Have
Been Any Clearer
If You Wanna Make The World
A Better Place
(If You Wanna Make The
World A Better Place)
Take A Look At Yourself, And
Then Make A Change
(Take A Look At Yourself, And
Then Make A Change)
(Na Na Na, Na Na Na, Na Na,
Na Nah)

I've Been A Victim Of A Selfish
Kind Of Love
It's Time That I Realize
That There Are Some With No
Home, Not A Nickel To Loan
Could It Be Really Me,
Pretending That They're Not
Alone?

A Willow Deeply Scarred,
Somebody's Broken Heart
And A Washed-Out Dream
(Washed-Out Dream)
They Follow The Pattern Of
The Wind, Ya' See
Cause They Got No Place
To Be
That's Why I'm Starting With
Me
(Starting With Me!)

I'm Starting With The Man In
The Mirror
(Ooh!)
I'm Asking Him To Change
His Ways
(Ooh!)
And No Message Could Have
Been Any Clearer
If You Wanna Make The World
A Better Place
(If You Wanna Make The
World A Better Place)
Take A Look At Yourself And
Then Make A Change
(Take A Look At Yourself And
Then Make A Change)

I'm Starting With The Man In
The Mirror
(Ooh!)
I'm Asking Him To Change His
Ways
(Change His Ways-Ooh!)
And No Message Could've
Been Any Clearer
If You Wanna Make The World
A Better Place
(If You Wanna Make The
World A Better Place)
Take A Look At Yourself And
Then Make That . . .
(Take A Look At Yourself And
Then Make That . . .)
Change!

I'm Starting With The Man In
The Mirror,
(Man In The Mirror-Oh
Yeah!)
I'm Asking Him To Change
His Ways
(Better Change!)
No Message Could Have
Been Any Clearer
(If You Wanna Make The
World A Better Place)
(Take A Look At Yourself And
Then Make The Change)
(You Gotta Get It Right, While
You Got The Time)
('Cause When You Close Your
Heart)
You Can't Close Your . . .Your
Mind!
(Then You Close Your . . .
Mind!)
That Man, That Man, That
Man, That Man
With That Man In The Mirror
(Man In The Mirror, Oh Yeah!)
That Man, That Man, That Man
I'm Asking Him To Change
His Ways
(Better Change!)
You Know . . .That Man
No Message Could Have
Been Any Clearer
If You Wanna Make The World
A Better Place
(If You Wanna Make The
World A Better Place)
Take A Look At Yourself And
Then Make A Change
(Take A Look At Yourself And
Then Make A Change)
Hoo! Hoo! Hoo! Hoo! Hoo!
Na Na Na, Na Na Na, Na Na,
Na Nah
(Oh Yeah!)
Gonna Feel Real Good Now!
Yeah Yeah! Yeah Yeah!
Yeah Yeah!
Na Na Na, Na Na Na, Na Na,
Na Nah
(Ooooh . . .)
Oh No, No No . . .
I'm Gonna Make A Change
It's Gonna Feel Real Good!
Come On!
(Change . . .)
Just Lift Yourself
You Know
You've Got To Stop It.
Yourself!
(Yeah!-Make That Change!)
I've Got To Make That Change,
Today!
Hoo!
(Man In The Mirror)
You Got To
You Got To Not Let Yourself . . .
Brother . . .
Hoo!
(Yeah!-Make That Change!)
You Know-I've Got To Get
That Man, That Man . . .
(Man In The Mirror)
You've Got To
You've Got To Move! Come
On! Come On!
You Got To . . .
Stand Up! Stand Up!
Stand Up!
(Yeah-Make That Change)
Stand Up And Lift
Yourself, Now!
(Man In The Mirror)
Hoo! Hoo! Hoo!
Aaow!
(Yeah-Make That Change)
Gonna Make That Change . . .
Come On!
(Man In The Mirror)
You Know It!
You Know It!
You Know It!
You Know . . .
(Change . . .)
Make That Change.

Another day...

Well, today is like one of the most busiest day after the horrifying yesterday which causes me almost collapse.. My whole body trembled unstoppably and I finally could sleep by that moment, I could felt how tired was my body but then my mind is wide awake... So, when you my recent blog, it's really like a lunatic typing blog... oh well, since when I'm not loony?
Anyhow, today is a bust-of-life... start with a test, then class, class, class, and finally, a role play for english class.
The most interesting part... of coz is the last part, "Save the best for the last".. even I'm totally exhausted yet I still make one hell of show for my fellows and my teacher~
I played a role of a son who's convincing their parents to allow me to go Cameron Highlands with my friends.. Too bad, there's no one recording this role play, they were sleepy I guess (so not weird to be that tired). Somehow, from what my friend say, I've made a lot of emotions and it's like I'm an actor (standard la, I stand on a drama stage before man~). However, when it comes to my real life.... There's not a emotion I can determine is me.... Or is it not... I can't find that out...
I'm just like a phantom with its Masquerade... yeap, let me present to y'll...

Naitomea - Masquerade

Something is stabbing from inside...

This date should be remarkable for me though I know such a day is nothing but right now, all that I could think of is more than nothing.... It's simply empty... voids... black holes... Something is preventing me to rest, something is preventing me to slumber into my dreams.. What is wrong with me? Why is everything within me started to work slower than they used to be... the time that was tick-tocking... how many times has it working on..? It's been countless in my head but when I take a look at the clock... It had only passed 15minutes...

Is the time really being controlled by my emotions...?
What is my emotion right now....?
Why is my emotion not here with me....?
Why am I feeling so lost when I stare to the no-body in the mirror....?
Who is the person who I stared so long but still couldn't smile back at me....?
Who is the man beyond the mirror....?
Is it really me....?
Is it just a person wearing a mask to show to others that he is not a puppet....?
Was my feelings all these days was just an adaption from other people's emotion....?
Was everything that I had been through....isn't who I've been through....?

Then, who is the real me.... what do I really want...?
As I figuring this... I shall present you all this song...
Naitomea - Nothing you lose

Let's Back To Square One

One of the songs of Naitomea new released album : Chronic.
Though you could really say to me that "It's in japanese and I don't even understand a thing he sang".
If you would give me a second to make things clear that...
"Seeing is never efficient. How it feels that matters".
Same like when you're thinking of loving someone right, your eyes could drag you to see many attractive person across your life but somehow, it's your feeling that will tell you who should be more lovable than the others right.
And when I'm listening to this song, I have a good feeling about this song.(Same like the other songs). Omg, This might be the band that I've admired the longest among most of the band I've listened to before this. Too bad that I've found out not a lot of people know them because their album are no where to be found in Malaysia T-T, well, I'm walking the "side-ways" I guess~?

王力宏 - Kiss Goodbye

I can do it...Even If I Can't, I Have to...

Few weeks has pass by me and then only I realise I've stop writing my blog for quite some time. Well, it was really hard to get my time move on when I'm bound to a world of lost. However, I think I'm moving out from it right now, to seek for a better future and better life.
Anyhow, study life in college was like....
Speechless~ I doesn't know how to tell out this funny feeling but then I get really "kuai lan" lor even it's just after 3 weeks in college. I started to fall asleep in some damn boring lecture class(and just recently I skipped one lecture class) and in some boring tutorial class, I'll ask many question to the teacher since he himself was like got nothing to teach, if I didn't ask, I high possibly won't get to learn what he's trying to teach... And right now~ gained quite a lot of attention from the dudes ahaha~ I'll always disturb them in a good way of course.. Somehow, still no luck with the girls, no idea what kind of conversation to start with.. usually they just ask me about the studies and mostly the talks won't even last longer than 1 minute~
aw how sad~

Oh well, what to do, Just live on, no matter how much I whine, time will still do it's tick and tocks~

"A true Devil is always hidden behind the Angel's Wings"


Bonus: Who likely do you think this girl is? My friend? My Sister(?) ? My current girlfriend? My cousin? Or My Niece? ^^

Naitomea - Can You Do It?