Mirror With Broken Simper

A fool's paradise that's insurmountable, A verisimilitude that's melancholic, An euphoria that's vacuous, A person that's exasperate of whole enchilada, A denouement of élan vital

P/S - I'm lost in blue again, I just need to see that... that very smile again...

Abandon All Hope

*Emo Alert*
Do I never learn to help myself when myself is in need...?
I'm too harden that I never wanted to get help.
Someone is willing to lay their hand but... it's not the hand I want to hold.
I'm full of greed and eclectic.
And look where I ended up of being....

All
Alone
Hectically.

Abandon
All
Hope.

I know I'm not alone here being alone... I just...same like anyone would be...just tired..

CTRL+ALT+DEL

I'm hoping to establish a whole new reset in my life to put everything back to rest and try it again.
I've been acting much more weird these days, I realised it.. I've frighten everyone around me..
I'm not sure what I'm becoming either... This... This darn feeling...
I just can't stop hating myself these days..I don't know what I wanted...
Love?
Study?
Friends?
Families?

The more I think about it, the more ridiculous it get.
That's why, I'm going to put everything to a full stop. Stop the growth of myself... Fight for what I have...
Love can wait I guess... Sad but true... WAIT!!!

Are you ready?

This friend of mine, Potato....(yes Potato~) asked me one very funny thing.
"Why you always keep problems in your heart?"
The rather quite same thing my housemate Weixiang asked me...
Some times, I know I do seems like having a lot of problems in my life and I tend to keep it all..
Maybe some of you might think it's because I'm trying to stay away from you all or I'm being selfish for not telling out my problems. Somehow, that's not it...

When I always felt like telling my problems out to one trusted person...
I recalled what "she" had said to me when I told "her" my problem...
"Even if you tell me, I can't do anything to help you"
It's the sentence that put me to a helpless thought...
"She" was right in some sense...

But I do things different, I wanted to be always here, to listen to anyone's problems, though I might not be helpful, I'll try what's possible, though I'm not good in advising but I ain't letting anyone important to me to be sad.

That's me~ ¿LUNatism?

You've took away my 心跳

王力宏 - 心跳

Sad is sad... it's still.. pathetic..

Okay, I'm going to announce my "be-hiao-paiseh" de results for my first semester liao..
It might sound shocking for some of you, but then I've predicted this will happen and kept my fake hope underneath my brain for the "just in case" but truth is truth... I sucks in the first sem...
Like they say, "The first will always be the hardest". Alright, I've sipped the taste of college life, it's time to stay focus, if before this I did focus, now.. I should Focus more!!

Results:
Microeconomics : B+ (DARN!! I was expecting A!!)
Hubungan Etnik : B+ (Same sad case.....A!!!!!!)
English : B+ (My teacher is telling the truth, it's almost impossible to A...)
Introduction to Accounting : D (Expected sucks....)
Quantitative Studies : D (Hoped for pass... but still~)

Well...well... well.... What can I say... it's not over yet...
I shall put more effort to find my Beloved one... if not, I won't have the inspiration to study hard...(sounds like excuse... or maybe it's exactly an excuse..) Well, I just hate lonely~!!
Be wise in study, think twice for love~!

Everything is SPINNING

Why am I so BORED?!!!
I need something, someone, anything, or anyone to kill my boredom please~!!
I'm trying my best finishing all the works, then all that left for me...
Rot~ T-T If only I could get the right timing to go out.... sigh~~~ When I ok, other's not ok, when I not ok, everyone's ok... LoL Clashes of luck, nevermind, I'll continue to wait.....
WAIT~~~~~~
T-T