After years of fighting and struggling, I've finally managed to say goodbye to my blood and sweat-bathed courses. I'm one step closer to get my Degree and I thought I can't wait to get over with all this sleepless night. Yes, I know it's not the hardest of all but still, the process of evaluating the whole courses wasn't as easy as anyone could have expected especially those who have not worn my shoes. People who worked early would told me how they secretly cried during sleep because of the piling stresses or some people from other people from other college/university would tear their brain out just to feel the breeze of freedom.
I say, "hey man, we all been through that shit and you're not doing this alone". Levels of difficulty may seem different but the goals are the same, to live a better life but the definition for "a better life" is thoroughly distinct for each and every individual. I do woke up at night thinking what the fuck is going to happen to my life if all those bad moments happen to me, it never escaped my mind... not even once. I've always standing on one edge and at times I could enjoy the edge but not all the time, the thrill of knowing you'll fall down is fun but it sure is not for forever. Winning over risk is great but losing can drain you down damn straight.
But the twist here... it's not just about me and the paper... I've found new things in my life, I've finally found my friends and peoples to put my humanity faith on. Those who will found me when I fell off.. After years of lone living, I think I've found my packs but time is swift. Sun will set, Happiness wouldn't last. Moments of happiness became memories and this feeling might made us keep digging the past. Fear not my fellow friends, for as long I breathed on, the days we used to laugh shall never fade. I can't tell what's going to happen tomorrow but I pretty well sure that the moments we have been through will not be distorted.
Yes, people will change, direction will be different, point of view will be different, and thinking will be more adult-like. Do remember this, I'm at my eternal youth, I've pretty much changed to my final form. Come back for me and we shall awaken those memories. I'll always be the crazy fella that makes you think "How could such person exist?" because I can do so!
