Every step that I will take...

Actually, though I might have talk about love stuff all the time, I'm not exactly sure how far and how much I know about myself towards love stuff. It's like, I know I can jump boat anytime I want and get a hook on another person anytime I want. Some may say that it's because I'm afraid to fail again and that's why I don't dare to fall in love anymore but I really want to assure those who think that I'm the kind that can never forget about ex-lovers or just afraid for new feelings, you're wrong. I'm always up to a new and real relationship, and once I put my feelings on it, I pour my heart in it as well and when I realise the seed is not going to grow, I stop 'watering' the plant and I started to look for new seed.

Though there will be still a part of me left within them as an assurance that I'll be there for them, you see, I really can't stop myself from pampering ladies or things I love. That's why people ought to think when I started to become strict over my stuff, they thought I'm joking. Somehow, like a dog, my loyalty has it own limits, if people tend to ignore and doesn't show a bit of concern about me, my loyalty ends there at once. No point throwing yourself to people who wouldn't want to take a look at you.

I'll always believe that someday, my day will come and my life will be filled with another piece of puzzle. Though it's boring and tiring to keep waiting like that, it doesn't matter. I've already waited for years, and for sure I can wait for it any longer than I expected myself can bear.

I will start to make changes step by step just like how I did before, I just need to reclaim back my perseverance and keep FIGHTING!

How Real is Real...

Times when someone hope that their dreams should be reality whereas reality is better off to be dreams, then you should have realised that you're considering this because you have nothing left in this Reality, but is it true? We, the fortunate ones should be considering every day is a gift and because we have something that we think it's n

ecessary for us to have and make it as a "normal" life, it doesn't mean it's not important anymore.

If you ought to always compare to other's life of how complete they are, you're not being fair because you're not comparing yourself who is less fortunate than you. You always look forward for good things to happen to you and that's what make you vulnerable for your weaknesses to be penetrated and injure you from time to time.

It's time to stand up, stop lying on the ground for too long, you need to peak on the hole above you and keep looking, you can't see it, doesn't me

an it's no there.

Wherever I go, rumours follow...

One of the cons of me walking out of my old life. Must I like really go through all this in my single status? Can't I be like, the lone wolf who hunts alone at the darkest hour or some sort of stuff like that?? Although, I will do whatever it takes to be in relationship, but I prefer a mutual feelings than to be startled by rumours. I'm not that pity and pathetic am I?

Alright, I take it that people wouldn't believe how would my girlfriend would be like as my stupid attitude makes me unbelievably stupid.. It's hard for people to understand that, I'm not the kind of guy girls will think of and just the sight of me will make them think "Impossible!!".

I ain't being negative about this sort of judgement, look, I understand how ridiculous and annoying I am. I'm just closing my trace. I don't need to let people know who I cherished,loved, and cared. All I want to do is just to continue letting her be happy. I'm closing any trace that will come close to her, I could do as far as I could as this is me being selfish.

Knowingly people will convince me to go for her, I know what I'm capable of doing and I can't be the one to make her feel complete. I don't feel tired at all continuing like this, as this won't be forever, soon, I'll have my own place to start my own story.

This is just to clarify stuff, I'm cool and awesome.

and I don't feel emotional at all.
Because there are things,

we men should do for

the one we love.