The hidden dagger...

Ever think about sometimes how cruel reality really is that people ought to change to become someone they once hated.  There's nothing in this world that would left unchanged..  People that were placed in certain situation will cast an indecisive decision that affect them in a whole.  It's usually left unseen and their stubborn behaviour that they have not "changed" is the core that allows them ultimately became that other person.  Somehow, think about it, it doesn't make any sense if you have a stronger base built in your heart.  

There can be no tide that can drifted your wills if you're strong enough.  As strong as the tide pushes you, you must always remember to hold your beliefs tight.  As tight as you want to hold it, it's wise to adapt and improvise situation instead of plain adapting it and let it take over who you really are.  People around me started changing already, the wheels of fate started to move again and thus, I have to move another 3 more steps.

As much as people wanted changes to happen, I seek for more.  Be it people will be blinded by their impression towards you, you shouldn't be blinded by who you really are.  

The flowing water will soon reveal the rocks beneath it.  

People only want to feel in charge and have the power to change things yet they can be too pathetic at times that they eventually followed everything without caring right or wrong anymore.  Like a King, although he had all the powers to command but he can just be a puppet stringed by their chamberlains.  People can be easy to control if you can be a source of their needs.

People big-mouthed questioned about changes but aren't we all hiding our own daggers because we have lost that of most important, Trust.  And when you've denied to accept these changes of trend, people will start questioning you and you will be their omega.

Don't worry, don't be afraid, stay calm, and do nothing.  Let the nature you take over you, life isn't all about being first, it's about surviving last.  Either you do whatever it takes or you stay passive for the opportunity.

In a glimpse...

Fate can be a real bitch sometimes, they took you off without you ever noticing and as hard as it felt, not many really wanted to let go and face reality.  It's just like last few days that I've witnessed someone being sent to the huge oven and perished from the world with all that's left is their ashes and memories.

How does it felt like to know someone you loved will never be there for you anymore?
How does it felt like the moment you went to bed realising you're the only one left lying on the bed?
How does it felt like when you realise you'll never hear their voice or feel their warmth anymore?

It's unbearable to be gone in this world out of sudden and it's even more unbearable to endure the lost and being alone at the very end.  It's very painful and unfair but life must go on even if you have to cry and suffer alone.  Sometimes, people will just left you for no reason and no notice.

I knew it just right~

Anger Management

Tonight, it's a bad night, there they started again having an argument, when there's nothing else to talk about, they gave up a quarrel and spike the situation where one will keep talking about the same thing and another one kept silence.  Well, I'm sure this sort of stuff happened all around the globe, argument, it occurs throughout the time and some come to worst even separated for good.  As usual, I'm not showing support on neither side, they can argue all the way round they want, giving out ridiculous reasoning of excuse and ridiculous reasoning to condemn.  There's no judge to determine wrong or right, they themselves determine it all, I remembered that there was once that me and the other were brought up to judge the situation.

I'll never protect nor condemn them, I just sit aside and let things happened.  The result, it can happen in every way it wants and I don't care about anything the argument is about.  For all I know, there's this sort of pain that been kept deep down inside me and it's only a matter of time before I developed mentality disorder.  All these years, I'll need  to endure everything around me and there's no place for me to let it out, so, I kept burying them, covering one part after another.  

Praying that my scumbag brain will end my grief by letting me forgetting these scenes...  I've already lost a place where I'm suppose to find serenity, I've lost a place where I'm suppose to find someone that I can trust and rely on.  It's not entirely anyone's fault anyhow, I've decided to punish myself in this sort of agony so that, I would give up the thoughts that someone will save me one day, give up hopes that good things will happen to me, and leave up all the rest to go on its own pace.  I'll just need to stand up on my feet for most of the time and keep moving forward. 

Though I still give hope to people, I still think that people deserve to earn things that I couldn't have. 

 I will never surrender!