Actually, though I might have talk about love stuff all the time, I'm not exactly sure how far and how much I know about myself towards love stuff. It's like, I know I can jump boat anytime I want and get a hook on another person anytime I want. Some may say that it's because I'm afraid to fail again and that's why I don't dare to fall in love anymore but I really want to assure those who think that I'm the kind that can never forget about ex-lovers or just afraid for new feelings, you're wrong. I'm always up to a new and real relationship, and once I put my feelings on it, I pour my heart in it as well and when I realise the seed is not going to grow, I stop 'watering' the plant and I started to look for new seed.
Though there will be still a part of me left within them as an assurance that I'll be there for them, you see, I really can't stop myself from pampering ladies or things I love. That's why people ought to think when I started to become strict over my stuff, they thought I'm joking. Somehow, like a dog, my loyalty has it own limits, if people tend to ignore and doesn't show a bit of concern about me, my loyalty ends there at once. No point throwing yourself to people who wouldn't want to take a look at you.
I'll always believe that someday, my day will come and my life will be filled with another piece of puzzle. Though it's boring and tiring to keep waiting like that, it doesn't matter. I've already waited for years, and for sure I can wait for it any longer than I expected myself can bear.
I will start to make changes step by step just like how I did before, I just need to reclaim back my perseverance and keep FIGHTING!
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