Judgement & Righteous...

Not much to say here today, just wanna do some quick-post in here. Felt miserable today...
I cant be the one i wanted to be... this kind of feeling is killing me from the inside to the whole part of my body.
I seems like a fool... or maybe I'm just a fool to begin with... My feelings were just like lyrics..


Everlasting depression,
this one page Fleeting tactics,
to those eyes
Without supplication, evil in law, connecting toward prison

Note with deadly poison, harboring fear at earthly desires
Incessant drool at delusional lies Judgment,

prattling on of crime unification
Who knows how to break the deadlock?

World of acquittal
Words of sanction


There goes my hatred grows, The pain that felt like being impaled through my palms & my limbs... The pain of everyone sealed within me & I'll sleep along with their pains that I've took away from them... forever asleep.. never awake...

An update....

Wondering why i've not updated my blogs for weeks already? Well, actually, i faced some problems & i guess it's finally over for now.. yet, another task is coming for me that is the mid-year 'xam. I guess most of the schoolie should have face the same problem right now... yes, that's preparing for it... that even explains the reason why i've no time for my updates right?! but now, i'm able to update it coz i wanna take a breather from reading. my head is killing me right now.

oh, so, why am i not updating my blog last 2 weeks? i should give an answer, actually, i failed my driving exam twice... & i'm totally pissed off that i barely have the moods to do anything..(excluding studying). Each time repeating it, i'll have to pay RM100... that means i've spent RM200 overall just for repeating the stupid exam. Yes, you'll ask me why i failed... I think it's better that i skip the explanation & stick to the conclusion... i sucks at following easy laws... to those who want to take driving license sooner or later, my advise that is... please, be extra concern & careful, they want you to fail more than pass.. in a positive meaning, they're extremely strict...

Anyway, finally... i passed my driving exam... I'm waiting for them to process my license now.. hehehe. Alright then, i guess that's all. (i'll show the pic of the license next time)

Untitled.....

I know I should have never exist,
I know I should have never appear in anyone's sight,
I know I should have never attempt for that feeling,
I know I should have never said that I'm fine,
I know I should have never think of it,
I know I should have never lie to myself,
I know I should have never betray myself,
I know I should have never act emotional;
However, what I'm doing now makes me look emo,
I know I should have never think too much,
I know I should have never wet my eyes.

But then,
I never think of why i exist, I just LIVE IT,
I never make myself invisible,
I never thought of not thinking that feeling,
I never thought of I will give up easily,
I never thought of forgetting it,
I never lie to myself to deny the fate,
I never betray myself to make me look stupid,
I never act emotional to drag others attention,
Just be emo to tell out my feelings,
I never think of that only my life is hard,
I never think that my tears should be shed for nothing.

Day Of 1st April... Never the same....

Wondering why it's been so long since the last time i update my blog?!
Heh~ faced some problem recently that i cant get my ass off from my trouble.
So many things to do, that i got time to do my work, got no time to die...
Well, it's not really serious work actually, it's just that i'm such a lazy ass to work hard.
Passing homework season that is... need to work out all the homework that i miss out before this... especially my sejarah.. the book is still blank until now. It's like nearly untouched(didn't even bring it to school). SPM nearing & i'm getting lazier & lazier... exam sucks deeply as well... sigh.

I can feel like my time is up.... I'm feeling so suffocated.... Rather complaining... I guess I'll just rush out for my work now... update later~