There's only ONCE in your life

So, any of you who is still reading my blog, have you begin to see changes in life?
Seeing life being beautiful and the brilliant radiance just melt away all the sadness.
Anyhow, I'm not trying to do anything to others life through my words, I'm just saying out my opinions and suggesting the way that I should live my life. Actually, this whole blog things just work like a diary of mine.
A place for me to cry out my sorrowfulness and my happiness of knowing this world.
These days, when I keep seeing my time flows out, only then I realise..
I've finally let go of my past...
To not placing hatred to anyone who's responsible for what had happened to me at the past.
To forget and forgive those who I had grudge with..
I can feel better can I...?
Sometimes, I'm just like any of you... "I feel tired", "I want to give up and get off!!", "Scold whoever I disliked at sight" and "Cry out & SCREAM!!"
Somehow, there's something halting me from doing so... something that tells me I can't lose.
To continue fighting, to never give up of what I'm fighting for, to never lose my way, to never stop and to never let my purpose waver..

FAITH is my answer~
It burns in everyone's heart, I believe it's waiting for all of you to brighten the light through the dark to keep moving on this life. You can do it!! We all can do it!! Live on!! Yeahooooo~!

Fear

Yes, today I'm going to talk about Fear.
What's Fear?
a distressing emotion aroused by impending danger, evil, pain, etc., whether the threat is real or imagined; the feeling or condition of being afraid. (picked up from http://dictionary.reference.com/browse/fear)

Everyone have fear in them.
To be frank I have a fear myself last time.. My worst nightmare it was.
Pediophobia - Fear of dolls
You know, those dolls that able o blink its eyes each time you move them. Believe it or not, it can make me run all over the house each time I have a look at them, I felt that they are totally freakishly terrific kind of toys.
All this thanks to the movie :
Child's Play


Maybe some of you might not heard of this movie before but this is the root of my fear. Every single day of my life during that moment, I'm bullied by my cousins each time I met them cause they'll use my cousin sister's doll to chase me around the house. I cried each time I looked at them. I couldn't control my fear.
Those days gave me a lots of nightmare.

Somehow, this nightmare of mine finally come to a full stop when I face against my fear courageously. I could never forget that very day when I overcame that fear.

It was this day that I was left alone at my aunty's house and I couldn't remember why there are no people in the house. Then I took one of the spoiled doll(with one missing eye) out from a plastic bag (it was meant to be in the bin after all). Guess what, I have a conversation with it (=P).

Deelun : Why am I afraid of you?! You're just a doll!!
Doll : ....
Deelun : Yes, I'll not be afraid of you anymore, not anymore!! I'll not LOSE!!
Doll : ....

The next thing that happened (warning: Brutality occurred), I used a screwdriver and smack on that doll many times (I grinned when I did that). Finally, another eye of the doll was poked inside the doll. For some reason, I felt refreshed... I felt as if I had rehabilitated.. After that, I packed up all the stuff and put it back at the same place and later on see my aunt throw it into the dustbin when they came home. On that very night, my cousin asked me to go to my cousin sister's room (the same thing he always do with that "Surprise") as he hid a doll behind him (much more larger size doll). And once I entered the room he closed the light and on it back with the doll facing to my face, I just looked at the doll and smiled. Then I asked my cousin, "So, what are you going to do with this doll to me?"

My cousin went speechless and put away the doll and bring me go outside to play other things.

Since then, I realised that fear can be overcome when you dare to face it with your heart. Nothing is impossible (says my sifu: JJ). That's why, nowadays, I can say that, there's not much of thing that can scare me as long my heart is stronger than it.
So, Can You Do It? Have you found a way to overcome your fear?
If I can do it, you can do it too cause we're the same, Only Human.

Unloved

Is it what really happened to me before this is a coincident or meant to be?
I want to know the truth but I didn't get a chance to earn that truth.
I was left alone wondering what did I do wrong..
Up to the end, all I have to do is to let go, let go of everything and there's no painkiller to remove this pain.
For no reason, I lost someone I used to care a lot
For no reason, I was abandoned once again
For no reason, I couldn't have the chance to know the truth.
This is not the end I want, I know the truth hurts, but what hurts me the most is the Truth behind the curtain that I can never know is not revealed to me.
An execution without a reason...
If these all meant to happen in me, let it be, but you have the choice to give an answer, give it to those who need it, and let things end the way they should be.
Forced love will have no happiness.
If it's yours, it will remain to be yours, if it isn't, no matter how hard you tried to hold it, it will go off.

The wound is going to get worst for both of you if this goes on.
So, it's your choice. It's always your choice.
Remember, running away from a problem is never a solution.
Once the decision is made, time itself will be the cure for you.
Trust me in this...


***This is meant for someone who's in need, you need not to reveal yourself.
Just want you to know, I'll always be there, always, always be there.***

Presenting this songs for you:


Cheer up and live on a'ight! I've move on my life, and now, just waiting for you to do it too!

Cherish your life

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Naitomea - REM_


Naitomea - Love Addict

Life is not enough..Never enough.

Everyone know the fact of this world:
Scarcity exist around us,
the term Scarcity(In Economics) means that Humans needs are unlimited but the resources are limited.
The most simple example?
Time.
Time is never enough for everyone living around.
You live through everyday,but have you ever open your eyes from your sleep one day to say thank goodness you're still alive while others are dying out.
Have you really cherish your life?
Can you see what the World sees? Can you feel what the World feels?

Have you ever look at a beautiful place and wonder what does the blind sees in their life?

Have you ever eat a food and wonder how would it tasted like for the peoples who's starving to death?

However, everything that occur is INEVITABLE. It is meant to happen for a reason.
Doesn't mean I want you to live along with those who's unlucky, Doesn't mean I want you to discriminate those who are weaker than you, Doesn't mean I want you to live with guilty that you're living better than others, Doesn't mean I'm pleading you to be jealous of others good life, Doesn't mean I'm begging everyone to pity others' poor lives and make ourselves suffer like them.

All I want to say that is, as long we are living in this life, Life shall never be wasted. Time is not enough for everyone, lets grab every second of it to live a better life. Can you do it?

Though there are sometimes that some of us will hate ourselves for being alive in this world,somehow, Trust yourself, everything that exist are there for a reason.
Therefore, everyone is special, everyone are meant to be someone and meant to live on.

Bear in mind that,
"Life without sadness is a life without happiness"

The term FaceProblem do exist

Some people are meant to be loved and some are meant to be hate.
Get what I mean?
And I'm seeing the possibilities to be the latter one.
Anyhow, I don't expect to be liked by anyone, Hate will lead to nothing for me because I've been through it so many times that I need to know everyone's first sight at me was hatred.
Some see me as uneducated and some see me as a snob.
Some see me as a good guy and some think they've seen my dark side.
What can I do?
I didn't ask for this but then at least I'm trying my best not to hate others.
However, they wouldn't mind to mark me with their hatred..
Be it love or hate, I'll accept it.
Be it that everyone around me are leaving me, it won't surprise me.
Be it I'll be left alone, I won't be drop dead.
Because it was there that my life begin.


"If there's no more light in front, it doesn't mean you have to stop"

Love is like a Rose... Agree?

I've witnessed or heard from many love incidents from most of my deary friends these days.. More often than usual though and from what I can see and even I myself have felt it before... There came this dream yesterday that inspired me that Red Rose signified Love based on my perception of course. Maybe there's else one that state out this statement but it's what I tend to tell out myself.

Why do I said so??
Because if it isn't the Rose you pick, it's the thorn that bleeds your fingers..
Same as love, if it's not love you felt, then it is pain that marked on your deary heart. For some people, in front of their eyes is full of Red Roses that they are never worried about picking it up because they could pick it any time. Some, tries their best to shower love as much as possible to the single Rose they picked.. Some, had a step on the Rose each they picked one because they need another. And some, had enough blood loss that they start giving up and tend to act neutral..

I've learned that a few of my friends had started giving up in love, yes, it's a plenty of them. With the status of "Single but Unavailable"... Is their heart really comfortable with it?? Or they are lying to make themselves feel better? Who doesn't like to be loved.. to be concerned by someone. Of course not meant to be locked in Love Cage. I bet most of you know the differences. And I dare to bet, if I compare 10 Singles and 10 Couples, The Singles would say they are at their best condition and it's comfortable to be alone and the The Couples would say having a lover is the best.. Who is true, Who is false?? By the way, the 10 Singles should be the Singles that had more than 1 Ex.

Love is a many many stupid things.. Can cause Happiness,Sadness,Sorrow,Joy,Excitement, or even Nothingness.
The biggest impact to a human emotion (exclude Economic drastic changes).

Yet, no matter how many times I scarred my heart because of love.. I shall never give up in Love.. I want to see.. I want to feel the miracles of love.
I'm longing for love indeed..Imma Love Maniac~!

P/S - I might not be a good lover, but it's just a matter of time for me to adapt to be a better man.

Cherish your life...

It's a break... I want to SCREAM!!!

First SCREAM is dedicated for the end of the First Semester in TARC after all this time..
Yes, it's finally over for the first time...
I could smell the air things are keep coming better and better.
Banzai!!!

2nd and the last SCREAM...
I freakishly screwed up my last exam paper damn it~!! It's burning my heart but it's not over, this failure is my first trail to remake everything... There's no more second time.. Once is enough to tempered my heart. This will be my first and last Screwed up... (At least I'm dying hard hoping for it and Trying to do it!!!)

Aya Hirano - Set Me Free

P/S - Set me free too please~!!
Currently still on exam weeks, will do my blogs after Finals... Yosh!!