Fly

Reaching for the sky so hard
You are trying to get up
From everything motto habataku tame ni

Fighting for your life so hard
Someday you will see the light
Kagayaku tame ni hikari aru michi

I will fight and fight for me
I will show the world what I can do
If I had the wings I will fly high then anything anyone

Fly so high, Fly so high
Dare yori takaku tonde miseru sa
Fly so high, Fly so high
Moetsukiru made tatakaitsuzuke
For my life

I feel alone everyday
Sky of love, Sky of tears
Glory and sadness kodoku norikoe

I've been searching through the dark
If there's a light up ahead
And I will meet you in front of the "Holy Cross"

I will fight and fight for you
I will do anything just for you
If I had the power to fly high then anything anyone

Fly so high, Fly so high
Kaze ga anata ni yuuki wo atae
Fly so high, Fly so high
Sora ni tsutsumare rise now
For your life, I will fly with you

If you feel alone I will be there for you
Take my hand tomo ni hateshinai sora
Come with me now, Fly with me now yume no basho

There is only one sky to fly
Ima koko de fly to your light

Fly so high, Fly so high
Dare yori takaku tonde miseru sa
Fly so high, Fly so high
Moetsukiru made tatakaitsuzuke

* Fly so high for my life
I've been searching throught the dark
I will fight and fight for you

* repeat

Looking for a light in the far away darkness...

Today is indeed a bad day... I've caused another person I love in my life to hurt...
how many time was it I've hurt someone's heart... i hate myself,i hate everything about myself.
All i ever hope for is to cherish others life and i don't hope to see them sad.As for myself,I got nothing no more inside me,I don't care what my feelings are,all i want is for others to be happy and not to follow my path to trace loneliness and sadness.
I've seen many things not just through my life,through this whole world and that's when i have the visionary to make people happy especially the ones that I loved..but in fact,who am I to do such act.
I don't have what it takes to cherish peoples life..
Yeah,maybe you're thinking I'm being emotional to myself or I'm pleading for someone to care and look at me.Be frankly,I really don't care bout my own emotion,whether people realise me or not,it's not really a matter.
Maybe you're asking me in your mind "then why the hell you do blogging,isn't that you're pleading someone to read it and hope for their sympathy".
In fact, I do blogging because I have no place to write out the words in my heart,I've no place to keep my feelings in home,and i nid to do something to make me felt relieve...
In here,the internet(in my blog...), I just write it without thinking of whether will there be a person who read it or not..

Last but not least, I just want to apologise again to my dearest...
I shouldn't do what I've done..But since I know the problem is related to me,I have the responsible to know and help in together with you to solve it.I doesn't want you to take this all alone...Please forgive me and understand my intention...

Riot Guy!!

Since I'm so bored being at home like almost everyday and there's not much thing I could do alone..
I'll just spend some of my time blogging up.
Still got one month+ till my sem started and right now it's all bout rehabilitation in my home since my boney hand is still in the bad condition,I cant move too much as it will make my whole hand pain in numb. And yesterday my friend called me:
Ezzat : oi kok!!
Me : urm?
Ezzat : esok jom gi Sunway....Lagoon!!
Me : Lol?! sorry la, tangan x pulih lagi ar,x bleh rendam air.
Ezzat : ah la, x pe la, ko pakai je plastic kat tangan ko pastu angkat tangan tinggi tinggi masa kat air
Me : (WTF is he thinking?!!) eh sorry ar,mmg x bleh ar,kang patah lagi sekali,lagi teruk.
Ezzat : oh, ok la,xper..eh "stock" dah dapat??
Me : .... ok ok...
Ezzat : ok la,bye~
Me : bye..

Sucha good friend of mine.. never forget bout me ahahaha but too bad dudes,it's a wrong timing man.Guess I'll just put all this alone, who ask me to be so strong until broke my own bone.
the hardest thing in human mind that is to deal self injury to your own physical.Your mind will keep finding way to minimize your injury when you tend to do something to yourself. It's a self-defence program tht's buried in your mind.

You might be wondering what i'm saying is a crap or not.. well, you can try it yourself then,try punch urself as hard as possible and then ask someone else to punch u as hard as possible, you'll realise the difference of pressure launch on u by ur partner.
that's because ur brain was hesitating your physical to not injured yourself but your mind was telling your hand to punch yourself..

As for my case... I calculated wrongly and overused my strength..It's called as unpredictable cases or in other words...Accident..Sigh...
Still lazy to tell out bout my PLKN experience... dunno why,my feelings been driving me mad lately...

That's Where You Find LOVE!!

In your eyes
I found the greatest prize
You and I could not be closer

And in your arms
Is everything I want
Now I know my search is over

And I don't know where you take me
But it's exactly where I wanna be

It's where the stars line up
It's where the oceans touch
It's in a place you've never been that feels like home
It's in the air right now
It's where you give your all
And give a little more
I've never been so sure
That's where you find love

People pass
And listen to us laugh
Wishing that they had the same thing

And our friends they ask
How we made it last
I just smile and say the same thing

I'm not sure how we got here
Baby I'm just glad that you got here

It's where the stars line up
It's where the oceans touch
It's in a place you've never been that feels like home
It's in the air right now
It's where you give your all
And give a little more
I've never been so sure
That's where you find love

That's where you find love

It's where the stars line up
It's where the oceans touch
It's in a place you've never been that feels like home

It's in the air right now
It's where you give your all
And give a little more
I've never been this sure
That's where you find love

Find love

That's where you find love

It's Not Over...sigh...

OVERDRIVE~!!

Oh great, well ladies and gentlemen,firstly first, I think you people must have thought tht I've stopped blogging since i left my blog rot here for so long without even a slightest touch lay on it.In fact, for your all information, I just came back from PLKN few weeks ago and... I broke my hand. Not entirely broke though, just a quite serious fracture which causes the bones of my hand look weird~ It's on my little finger palm side bone(i dunno how to explain it clearly,so,just try to imagine it k)~
How it happened, it was quite a long story eh, but I'll try to make it short somehow.

So, I entered a CQC(close-quarter-combat) presentation and I'm specialised in breaking rooftop bricks.. Wait a min, I know what's in your mind tht is i failed to break the bricks and broke my finger right?? nah, it's not like that~ It was my second presentation on that very day (10th March, one day before leaving PLKN) and we had a closing ceremony and we the CQC team was required to present again and so... the second time i break the bricks, it was a success and I got it OVERDRIVE, as i punched through the bricks,my hand straight landed on the cement ground and then... wahlaaa, i broke my deary hand.

Somehow, it was not pain at all,I realised something wrong with my hand when i punched through it and i have a quick look and then i shouted "What the F***K!!",something is funny bout my hand!! lol~!However,I able to maintain my coolness and leave the field in a stylish way (ahahaha!!) and I straight rush to my teacher,he was smiling to me telling me that it was a great show & when i showed him my hand...He was jammed a while...and i told him again "cikgu,tangan dah patah" (lol!!). Then, he straight told me to go to medic.

So, ya~ i broke my finger...and i gave those dudes who was trying to relocate my bone quite a shock... i showed no pain emotion cause i was smiling(?!!). My dormitory teacher had his mouth wide opened in a shocking way when i asked him to take my picture of my hand before it was bandaged (but he doesn't wan to take the pic though).So, I sufferred 3weeks of rashes pain in my hand instead of my broken bone ache...

Today was suppose to unbandage my hand and i thought my hand was fine already but somehow,it is still in pain and through the X-ray,the fracture is still there...(dammit!!),so the doctor just said to me,you need to reput the cement(oh hell yea...dammit!).

Then right now...Hafta wait for another 2 more weeks, hopefully it'll get fine by then though..
Will have more update soon...

What's my Vision... What's my Purpose to be still ALIVE?

The end of the "war"... I felt like I've lost part of my reason to live as well.
Maybe,everything was just the very beginning but I'm really not used to living in such way where everyday doing the same thing. I'm not looking forward anything like an adventure or something..I just wish I could do something to enhance myself.
Yes, to study, to gain more knowledge, to regain my original purpose since last time:
Leave the bloody school and start on a real rundown of studying of human personality.
Right now, I'll just take my time enjoying a few days of holidays. I've been reading for years of those boring books, they make me sick sigh.

Ahahaha, I sounded like someone who's going to conquer the world or like some nerd talking bout the function of books, cheer up~ I'm still the same me after all this. hehehe
A'ight, I'll drop off another song from my fav band (though i know most of you wouldnt like it) as a display~~

Nightmare - Naked Love

Perak here I come....

Yeap... to any of you that ar going to miss me.. it's time to miss me now kay.
i'll be sent to Perak soon. very soon.
it was the PLKN thingy..
the letter that they sent to me looks really encouraging ya... everything is included in there... oh my goodness.. i'll try to do some research on it when i have the ample time ya.
right now.. deal wif spm first ahahah!!