Wondering...

Living right now...
Seeing the days pass by me and only I knew that there's nothing much I can do for anything anymore...
Eliminating every possible values of emotion.
Ceasing chance to have back my feelings..
Be lost and never found.
I know that if I don't do things for myself, no one else would.
Why need someone to care when even if you tell them your problem, all they can do is just to tell you "I can't help you, you have to help yourself".
So, I doesn't need anymore of concerns... I will still concern bout the people beside me but I certainly doesn't need anymore of you. I doesn't want to put a hope to you and hoping you will help me whenever I need you... I've been betrayed and abandoned too many times, I can't take it anymore... I'm tired... I never thought even you will abandoned me like anyone else..

I'm closing my heart....
I'll wear this mask and bound myself to normal state..
Thanks... and Goodbye