Looking at the man in the mirror...

The King of Pops, Michael Jackson had fallen out from the list of his convictions...
Everyone was hoping that he would rest in peace...
Is it really possible for someone to rest in peace while so many problems had run through him...
Can someone sleep in a well mannered when they had so many problems running through their mind...?
Death isn't the best way to run from problem, you just run out from you life.

As a reflection, I'll just bound to this chance to change my life once more..
This would be the 3rd time I make a change.
What kind of personality will I equip to myself this time?
Simple, not the usual me anymore...
still treating people the same way but the main idea that is...
I doesn't want anyone to know what's hidden within me.. that should spice things up a bit dont they.
Mysteries thrills everyone~
A tribute for My lifetime favourite singer, Michael Jackson, Man in the mirror. This songs meant so much for me, especially now.



Lyrics~
I'm Gonna Make A Change,
For Once In My Life
It's Gonna Feel Real Good,
Gonna Make A Difference
Gonna Make It Right . . .

As I, Turn Up The Collar On My
Favourite Winter Coat
This Wind Is Blowin' My Mind
I See The Kids In The Street,
With Not Enough To Eat
Who Am I, To Be Blind?
Pretending Not To See
Their Needs
A Summer's Disregard,
A Broken Bottle Top
And A One Man's Soul
They Follow Each Other On
The Wind Ya' Know
'Cause They Got Nowhere
To Go
That's Why I Want You To
Know

I'm Starting With The Man In
The Mirror
I'm Asking Him To Change
His Ways
And No Message Could Have
Been Any Clearer
If You Wanna Make The World
A Better Place
(If You Wanna Make The
World A Better Place)
Take A Look At Yourself, And
Then Make A Change
(Take A Look At Yourself, And
Then Make A Change)
(Na Na Na, Na Na Na, Na Na,
Na Nah)

I've Been A Victim Of A Selfish
Kind Of Love
It's Time That I Realize
That There Are Some With No
Home, Not A Nickel To Loan
Could It Be Really Me,
Pretending That They're Not
Alone?

A Willow Deeply Scarred,
Somebody's Broken Heart
And A Washed-Out Dream
(Washed-Out Dream)
They Follow The Pattern Of
The Wind, Ya' See
Cause They Got No Place
To Be
That's Why I'm Starting With
Me
(Starting With Me!)

I'm Starting With The Man In
The Mirror
(Ooh!)
I'm Asking Him To Change
His Ways
(Ooh!)
And No Message Could Have
Been Any Clearer
If You Wanna Make The World
A Better Place
(If You Wanna Make The
World A Better Place)
Take A Look At Yourself And
Then Make A Change
(Take A Look At Yourself And
Then Make A Change)

I'm Starting With The Man In
The Mirror
(Ooh!)
I'm Asking Him To Change His
Ways
(Change His Ways-Ooh!)
And No Message Could've
Been Any Clearer
If You Wanna Make The World
A Better Place
(If You Wanna Make The
World A Better Place)
Take A Look At Yourself And
Then Make That . . .
(Take A Look At Yourself And
Then Make That . . .)
Change!

I'm Starting With The Man In
The Mirror,
(Man In The Mirror-Oh
Yeah!)
I'm Asking Him To Change
His Ways
(Better Change!)
No Message Could Have
Been Any Clearer
(If You Wanna Make The
World A Better Place)
(Take A Look At Yourself And
Then Make The Change)
(You Gotta Get It Right, While
You Got The Time)
('Cause When You Close Your
Heart)
You Can't Close Your . . .Your
Mind!
(Then You Close Your . . .
Mind!)
That Man, That Man, That
Man, That Man
With That Man In The Mirror
(Man In The Mirror, Oh Yeah!)
That Man, That Man, That Man
I'm Asking Him To Change
His Ways
(Better Change!)
You Know . . .That Man
No Message Could Have
Been Any Clearer
If You Wanna Make The World
A Better Place
(If You Wanna Make The
World A Better Place)
Take A Look At Yourself And
Then Make A Change
(Take A Look At Yourself And
Then Make A Change)
Hoo! Hoo! Hoo! Hoo! Hoo!
Na Na Na, Na Na Na, Na Na,
Na Nah
(Oh Yeah!)
Gonna Feel Real Good Now!
Yeah Yeah! Yeah Yeah!
Yeah Yeah!
Na Na Na, Na Na Na, Na Na,
Na Nah
(Ooooh . . .)
Oh No, No No . . .
I'm Gonna Make A Change
It's Gonna Feel Real Good!
Come On!
(Change . . .)
Just Lift Yourself
You Know
You've Got To Stop It.
Yourself!
(Yeah!-Make That Change!)
I've Got To Make That Change,
Today!
Hoo!
(Man In The Mirror)
You Got To
You Got To Not Let Yourself . . .
Brother . . .
Hoo!
(Yeah!-Make That Change!)
You Know-I've Got To Get
That Man, That Man . . .
(Man In The Mirror)
You've Got To
You've Got To Move! Come
On! Come On!
You Got To . . .
Stand Up! Stand Up!
Stand Up!
(Yeah-Make That Change)
Stand Up And Lift
Yourself, Now!
(Man In The Mirror)
Hoo! Hoo! Hoo!
Aaow!
(Yeah-Make That Change)
Gonna Make That Change . . .
Come On!
(Man In The Mirror)
You Know It!
You Know It!
You Know It!
You Know . . .
(Change . . .)
Make That Change.

Another day...

Well, today is like one of the most busiest day after the horrifying yesterday which causes me almost collapse.. My whole body trembled unstoppably and I finally could sleep by that moment, I could felt how tired was my body but then my mind is wide awake... So, when you my recent blog, it's really like a lunatic typing blog... oh well, since when I'm not loony?
Anyhow, today is a bust-of-life... start with a test, then class, class, class, and finally, a role play for english class.
The most interesting part... of coz is the last part, "Save the best for the last".. even I'm totally exhausted yet I still make one hell of show for my fellows and my teacher~
I played a role of a son who's convincing their parents to allow me to go Cameron Highlands with my friends.. Too bad, there's no one recording this role play, they were sleepy I guess (so not weird to be that tired). Somehow, from what my friend say, I've made a lot of emotions and it's like I'm an actor (standard la, I stand on a drama stage before man~). However, when it comes to my real life.... There's not a emotion I can determine is me.... Or is it not... I can't find that out...
I'm just like a phantom with its Masquerade... yeap, let me present to y'll...

Naitomea - Masquerade

Something is stabbing from inside...

This date should be remarkable for me though I know such a day is nothing but right now, all that I could think of is more than nothing.... It's simply empty... voids... black holes... Something is preventing me to rest, something is preventing me to slumber into my dreams.. What is wrong with me? Why is everything within me started to work slower than they used to be... the time that was tick-tocking... how many times has it working on..? It's been countless in my head but when I take a look at the clock... It had only passed 15minutes...

Is the time really being controlled by my emotions...?
What is my emotion right now....?
Why is my emotion not here with me....?
Why am I feeling so lost when I stare to the no-body in the mirror....?
Who is the person who I stared so long but still couldn't smile back at me....?
Who is the man beyond the mirror....?
Is it really me....?
Is it just a person wearing a mask to show to others that he is not a puppet....?
Was my feelings all these days was just an adaption from other people's emotion....?
Was everything that I had been through....isn't who I've been through....?

Then, who is the real me.... what do I really want...?
As I figuring this... I shall present you all this song...
Naitomea - Nothing you lose

Let's Back To Square One

One of the songs of Naitomea new released album : Chronic.
Though you could really say to me that "It's in japanese and I don't even understand a thing he sang".
If you would give me a second to make things clear that...
"Seeing is never efficient. How it feels that matters".
Same like when you're thinking of loving someone right, your eyes could drag you to see many attractive person across your life but somehow, it's your feeling that will tell you who should be more lovable than the others right.
And when I'm listening to this song, I have a good feeling about this song.(Same like the other songs). Omg, This might be the band that I've admired the longest among most of the band I've listened to before this. Too bad that I've found out not a lot of people know them because their album are no where to be found in Malaysia T-T, well, I'm walking the "side-ways" I guess~?

王力宏 - Kiss Goodbye

I can do it...Even If I Can't, I Have to...

Few weeks has pass by me and then only I realise I've stop writing my blog for quite some time. Well, it was really hard to get my time move on when I'm bound to a world of lost. However, I think I'm moving out from it right now, to seek for a better future and better life.
Anyhow, study life in college was like....
Speechless~ I doesn't know how to tell out this funny feeling but then I get really "kuai lan" lor even it's just after 3 weeks in college. I started to fall asleep in some damn boring lecture class(and just recently I skipped one lecture class) and in some boring tutorial class, I'll ask many question to the teacher since he himself was like got nothing to teach, if I didn't ask, I high possibly won't get to learn what he's trying to teach... And right now~ gained quite a lot of attention from the dudes ahaha~ I'll always disturb them in a good way of course.. Somehow, still no luck with the girls, no idea what kind of conversation to start with.. usually they just ask me about the studies and mostly the talks won't even last longer than 1 minute~
aw how sad~

Oh well, what to do, Just live on, no matter how much I whine, time will still do it's tick and tocks~

"A true Devil is always hidden behind the Angel's Wings"


Bonus: Who likely do you think this girl is? My friend? My Sister(?) ? My current girlfriend? My cousin? Or My Niece? ^^

Naitomea - Can You Do It?

An Act Of Forget...

I felt cold.. Is my blood still flowing fast in my veins or is it that my heart itself had putting me into a state where there's no real reality infront of me? Was everything merely just an illusion or just my imagination..
It's really been quite long that I have my best sleep in the night... I felt very uncomfortable with sleep... My mind doesn't allow me to slumber into my dream by forcing me to be awake all night.. I know my health is on threat right now if things keep on being the way it is. However, there's not a thing I can do.. It's insomnia, though people would say insomnia is for those people who had many stress in life but when I'm so easy-taking though with some complications, I still can hang on.
Or was it I'm being too emotional for what had happened to me...?
bah!! I guaranteed I'm not being emotional!!
So... why still can't I have a good night sleep even though I'm mentally(i think) and physically ok?..

Sigh... troublesome!

Final Fantasy VII : Advent Children Complete

Just done finishing the whole mirror-downloading of this movie which cost bout 1GB+, though, from some certain parts that i've viewed through, i find it out that this wont be a disappointment and I really felt that I'm going to watch this another more of 100 times... I can memorise the dialogue already.. lol...


Anyway, I've done some exercise today, it's been quite some times since the last time I do exercise and right now when I finally get to do it, it's undeniable that I'm rather satisfied...Somehow, what makes me keep running when I could stop moving forward anytime I want...
What's giving me the purpose to keep holding on, I felt like an empty vessel already...there's nothing at all exist in me..

Could anyone...get me, out of this cipher??...

An Epilogue, Is a new Prologue

Alright dear readers, i believed that most of you would be laughing when after you finish reading this post of mine.
Before this, I could say out loud that I was so damn in love, but right at this moment, I could say that I've officially broke up with my loved one,we've choose to walk on the path of our own.
This is certainly no love-turn-hate situation after all, we still get to get along to be as friends, well, no matter how, she's still one person who once been very special to me, what you expect, my first love that i've been with after all~
Somehow, she have her reasons to put this relationship off and I'm also will be willingly to follow what she pleased, as long that I'm not being hanging on whether to be loved by her, that's the best thing to be decided in between us.

In seconds, one person that is very important for you, could be merely nothing more than just a friend of yours, isnt that surprising, I dont mind if you'll laugh me for being such an idiotic in love, but i deserve to be likely be in this way. Yes, I loved to be loved and I will never stop of seeking love in this life. Just like lifeline, you'll continue walking through it even though you'll fall many times... Who cares, I'm still standing here telling everyone, "I ain't stopping till You put my life to rest".

I'm just preparing to open my new chapter of my love life but then from what I can see now,lol, I have the toughest luck with how I looked like~ hurm, I need some modifications and changes to be a better man!!