A Bad Day Pop-ed Up Shooked Everything Apart

Look, these days, i keep on seeing one pair of doves break after another. What is happening?!
Where is all the promising has gone to? I'm not blaming either side & i know that there's no guarantee for a love. When it get loose, it just break like a fragile glass.
However, it just happened that most of them breaking loose & tears roll down from their deary eyes to their cheeks & the happiness that carved on it is gone, no more to be seen.
& you know what, i felt as sad as you guys & girls can felt.
Even though i myself never taste that feeling yet my heart pumps as i listen to your pitiful story.
But hey, i ain't crying for ye, it's the pain that you should have expected to taste whenever you think of starting a relation, in love, there's a price to pay.
You can lift it up, you can put it away.

Move On!!

Staring dead at the end of the road wont help you. Make a U-Turn & buckle up again, then keep on moving.
Don't forget the past & take note of not to repeat the same mistake.
George Santayana's Golden Words
"Those Who Cannot Remember The Past Are Condemned To Repeat It."

No matter what, ladies & gentlemen.. Here i am, preparing my ears & heart to listen to you.
Therefore, i present you this song to show my sincerity that I'll be by your side whenever you're sad. In fact, what friends are for right?!

Judgement & Righteous...

Not much to say here today, just wanna do some quick-post in here. Felt miserable today...
I cant be the one i wanted to be... this kind of feeling is killing me from the inside to the whole part of my body.
I seems like a fool... or maybe I'm just a fool to begin with... My feelings were just like lyrics..


Everlasting depression,
this one page Fleeting tactics,
to those eyes
Without supplication, evil in law, connecting toward prison

Note with deadly poison, harboring fear at earthly desires
Incessant drool at delusional lies Judgment,

prattling on of crime unification
Who knows how to break the deadlock?

World of acquittal
Words of sanction


There goes my hatred grows, The pain that felt like being impaled through my palms & my limbs... The pain of everyone sealed within me & I'll sleep along with their pains that I've took away from them... forever asleep.. never awake...

An update....

Wondering why i've not updated my blogs for weeks already? Well, actually, i faced some problems & i guess it's finally over for now.. yet, another task is coming for me that is the mid-year 'xam. I guess most of the schoolie should have face the same problem right now... yes, that's preparing for it... that even explains the reason why i've no time for my updates right?! but now, i'm able to update it coz i wanna take a breather from reading. my head is killing me right now.

oh, so, why am i not updating my blog last 2 weeks? i should give an answer, actually, i failed my driving exam twice... & i'm totally pissed off that i barely have the moods to do anything..(excluding studying). Each time repeating it, i'll have to pay RM100... that means i've spent RM200 overall just for repeating the stupid exam. Yes, you'll ask me why i failed... I think it's better that i skip the explanation & stick to the conclusion... i sucks at following easy laws... to those who want to take driving license sooner or later, my advise that is... please, be extra concern & careful, they want you to fail more than pass.. in a positive meaning, they're extremely strict...

Anyway, finally... i passed my driving exam... I'm waiting for them to process my license now.. hehehe. Alright then, i guess that's all. (i'll show the pic of the license next time)

Untitled.....

I know I should have never exist,
I know I should have never appear in anyone's sight,
I know I should have never attempt for that feeling,
I know I should have never said that I'm fine,
I know I should have never think of it,
I know I should have never lie to myself,
I know I should have never betray myself,
I know I should have never act emotional;
However, what I'm doing now makes me look emo,
I know I should have never think too much,
I know I should have never wet my eyes.

But then,
I never think of why i exist, I just LIVE IT,
I never make myself invisible,
I never thought of not thinking that feeling,
I never thought of I will give up easily,
I never thought of forgetting it,
I never lie to myself to deny the fate,
I never betray myself to make me look stupid,
I never act emotional to drag others attention,
Just be emo to tell out my feelings,
I never think of that only my life is hard,
I never think that my tears should be shed for nothing.

Day Of 1st April... Never the same....

Wondering why it's been so long since the last time i update my blog?!
Heh~ faced some problem recently that i cant get my ass off from my trouble.
So many things to do, that i got time to do my work, got no time to die...
Well, it's not really serious work actually, it's just that i'm such a lazy ass to work hard.
Passing homework season that is... need to work out all the homework that i miss out before this... especially my sejarah.. the book is still blank until now. It's like nearly untouched(didn't even bring it to school). SPM nearing & i'm getting lazier & lazier... exam sucks deeply as well... sigh.

I can feel like my time is up.... I'm feeling so suffocated.... Rather complaining... I guess I'll just rush out for my work now... update later~

What If someday.....

There's something that is been keeping me in wonder...
Ermmm, well, i don't really know how to describe my feeling but this is the outcome that i've been thinking of.
What if one day.... I'm not in this world anymore, how could my friends in the net would know bout it? Who gonna open my friendster or my Blog to announce my loss? It's a real negative thoughts somehow which a normal teenager like me shouldn't be thinking much about ahahaha.
I'll just hafta live the day i have left.

Anyway, it's time for me to grab my "P" license... shall I purchase the guarantee?? argh, I'm worried that the JPJ fella might not hav the mood on that day. I'll hafta pay another RM100 if i retake the exam... this really bugs me... the guarantee is RM150... worth it or not? friends, if any of you are reading this, kindly leave your suggestion 'kay.

Drama competition is nearing the edge already~ Wish me luck eh!











The girl that i'll die for!

Sigh, The Avalanche of WORK!!

Oh NO, at the beginning of the holiday, i thought that i'll be busy with my holidays like going shopping, playing games & go tackle girls! however, now the holiday is bout to end & i still haven't done anything much. everyday just stay at house sleeping during the afternoon till evening. Totally exhausted because of Drama~! Now, my throat feeling sore already... sigh, the competition of the drama is only 2 weeks away. Can i manage to handle it?!

Not Forget to mention.... My HOMEWORKS!! None of it are touched.... my bags remains the same place since last week. Anyway, who else gonna touch the homeworks anyway... everyone is busy with their holidays isn't it?! (my thoughts^^)