What is What?

I wanted to post something, but then I keep deleting my post after I'm done typing. I just kept having the feeling that I've posted my stuff again and again. It's either showing that I'm very chiong hei or I just kept forgetting about what I've posted before this.

Hurm, so, to all dear readers, if you felt that some of my posts are quite the similar one, just skip it~ the story might just be the same with different grammars and vocabs. I have terrible amnesia here, because this is my room of speech, I'll just keep myself entertain by typing words~ hehehe

I'm so in the feeling of bullying someone that I love to bully right now.

Weirdly though, why am I always come in contact with ladies that are already coupled... Give me a break~! I have no intention to make myself a love doctor, I'm just sharing my perception to ease their burden as a friend. Out of no reason, coupled ladies seems to unintentionally bound to me ahaks ~

When worst come to worst, I'll be misunderstood for trying to hook of others' girlfriend. Like heck I'm going to be interested in doing so. I'm a professional, and I certainly need not to "steal" from others (laugh at self) if I really want it.

So, was it because the ladies knew it that I wouldn't fall in love with them, so, they approached me or was it because they've already gave their trust on me?

1. If it was the first option, they might not know, I might eventually fell in love with them and I'll be feeling sore as I see my happiness walks away with another person.

2. If it was the second option, I'll think it as "Was it too easy for you to simply trust people? Wouldn't you be afraid that I'll eat you from the inside??", but then, ladies o ladies, your instinct would always be sharp as a knife. Trust me, I'm worth trusting~!

Up to the end, I'm still glad that the ladies trusted me
For at least once, I felt that I'm useful
& for there will be someone that
remembers me~

Riposte!

I guess things around me are finally cooling down and everything is going according to my plan. Though, there are certain external factor that happened out of my expectation, somehow, with the current strategy that I've made, there are no flaw for me to step in. I could make a better living style of myself already.

Though I may cause certain people dislike the way I behave, it's still within my expectation. Since, there's no way we could make the whole world agree with the way we look in life but if there are the majority that likes you and only minority are against you. Then, there are nothing for you to be worried of, you're still in a fine condition then.

There's a saying;

Having one friend is better than facing a new enemy.

I forgot the whole of the quotes, so I've change a bit of it but the meaning is still there ya.

So, there's really nothing for me to get worried of already I think.. It's just a matter of time until my effort bear its fruits and a matter of time till my love is finally answered.

Therefore, in the end, I've won!

My Pathetic Perception

Oh yeahhh~ it's finally coming to an end. It's undeniable that this short sem was quite challenging for me but the lesson that I've learned throughout this few weeks is rather useful.

The power of love, it's so strong that it's now catalyzing me to do improvements to myself~
Even though I have not gain love thoroughly, I'm gaining the benefits of loving someone already. The inspiration love had gave me, I felt so addicted to it!!

Oh love, what am I going to do without you being by my side...? If she can be mine, things would be much more exaggerating!
My Tamadun Islam tutor just told us "Loving someone without confession worth nothing". Ok,
I'm a coward in love, I don't dare to confess when I know there's no chance for us to be together but, Loving her secretly makes my love PRICELESS.

I stalk because I'm bored!

Other than doing studying and strolling up-and-down in Facebook to wait for new post of comments~ I really could have nothing else to do to fill up my empty feelings.. While many were busy with their works and studying as well, I've used my 120% spirits to finish up all the assessments ASAP. I might have done quite an impressive team-cooperation for work accomplishment, but then, as soon those works come to rest.. I would be in a state of lost. It's not what I want to keep staring at this 13' inch screen.

So, that's why I tend to be so updated with friends' news around me a.k.a reading their blogs as soon as they are posted. That's why, I tend to be like a stalker. I don't have much friend remember, and most of them, their world are different than mine. So, I would always try to gather as much friends I could to keep me "un-bored".

Somehow, seeing this post as it is.. I'm still bored~!

Bitter will taste like Sweet

I knew it that if I post this, sure it will sounds like stalker and plagiarizer~
but then, it's just that when the inspiration came to my head, I can't help but to post it out.
A lesson for me to learn and realise again~~

What was it??
I love wine a lot. Be it either red or white. I just love to drink it..
At least these doesn't tasted like the gassy beer which taste like H2O.

What's so special bout it?
It's not because of drinking wine could make me drunk that I drank it (I won't drunk anyway). I love to taste the sensual tingling feeling of wine on my tongue.
And wine, they tasted just like Love.

Interesting right?
When you forcibly drink a stemware of wine, the taste would be so complicated that you hardly get it to your throat.
In love, when you forcibly love someone and force them to love you, happiness is nowhere to be felt in that relationship.

When you slowly sip the wines, you'll be able to taste the mixture of 4 savor; sweet,salty,sour, and bitter.
In love, when you slowly bring the one you love closer to your life, you will be ready to accept all the pros and cons of the person you love.

That's what I think, so, what says you?

Yes, Chubby!! I was inspired by your wine-talking post
Though, what I thought was different from yours hehe

Let's see...♥

When I saw Chubby's Rules and Regulations for Lover boy~
[［转载］Facebook 这才是男朋友，你合格吗?]
I felt that it's funny..

Why? Because I have doubts about all this rules and regulations. Do a girl really can love the guy by not judging on the appearance, backgrounds, or any other possibly seen external angle of them? Is it that, by following these rules can ensure me to have a girlfriend and she'll need not to leave me?


In fact, I'm not very that strict with love and all I asked for is just 2 things from the lady I love:

1. Love me wholeheartedly.
2. Never lie to me when you realise you don't love me a.k.a be honest with me.

So, think you can do that if I tend to make move to abide your rules and regulations?
Sometimes, it's the thing that seems to be the simplest is the hardest thing to do.

You might not believe it, just act as if I'm talking to myself okay,
"I've done approximately about 90% of the rules and regulations you listed on my ex".
The other 10% never occurred, maybe it's because I doesn't have the chance to do it before she walks away.

What does this tells me? I'm not handsome enough? I'm not rich enough? or I'm not good enough in giving empty promises? I'll just assume, I'm not good enough after all.

I've said it out to her during the early period of our beginnings.
"If there's one day you find out that you doesn't love me anymore, don't be guilty. It's not your fault, it's because of me who couldn't give you the love you want."
Now things were left unspoken.
I wouldn't stare back the "Past", "Present" will move on, "Future" will be a reality.

So, are you up for my rules if I'm able to apprehend yours?
I bet that you're not, moreover, I'm not interested with people who's in relationship anyway~

Do you really need it? Can't you tell it from your mind?

Maybe.. I just know nothing

I do felt that I put in myself like Will Smith in Hitch(2005).
Always try to solve others' love problems or give them advices like a love doctor but when I look back to myself, I just felt that, "Who am I, to love?".
The more I see love stories around me, the more I felt confuse about my own feelings.

Sigh, perhaps I'll just suitable to be people's rubbish truck where they throw their "Sadness" instead of "Rubbish" on me(just like how my Sifu lui lui told me). Be it if I couldn't find the person I really want to love. I want to love her, but to know that she couldn't accept this love, I rather us just to be friends than making her avoiding me. She must not know anything!!
I don't think it's the time.. Not until I really discover one.

P/S - As for the others, I might behave weird like treating you nice while sometimes really bully you, that's just how the way I am. I like you, that's why, it's more reasonable for me to not let you walk away from me.

Sometimes, I just wish I would be the one that save you and you would save me,
Then, expressing [ILoveYou] wouldn't be that hard anymore.

Inspiration Acceleration!

Love is a powerful miracles that are gifted to every living beings.

There are various patterns of love, I've observed quite a number of it...
I've seen betrayals, ignorance, sweets, amateurs, vengeful, over-matured-but-end-up-screwed, cheating, hurt=love, sex love, jealousy, marriage-like, loyal, depreciation, nagging-complainant, competition & many more.

As you can see, I've met a lotsa kind of lovers around me and recently, the competition type of lovers would make me felt pity over those who are competed. Just because the lady is fairly better than the guy, the guy often felt helpless and felt as if he lost his pride because he can't accept himself losing to the one he loved. I wouldn't want to advise him face-to-face as I know he wouldn't listen.

As long she knows you truly loves her, just a slight difference in academic wouldn't harm your future. Moreover, if you really felt remorseful, you should enhance your study effort, blaming environment or everything around you is just like blaming your mom ever gave birth to you.

There's no escape from predicament, you'll face in one way or another. As mentioned, a problem wouldn't sounds good when you notice it, but, if you ever try to look at it from a different point of view to inspire yourself to further levels, that is, my friend, the steps for you to ameliorate.

It's great to have someone to care about you, but letting them worried about you all the time will make them feel insecure about the relationship.

-"Life isn't all about learning, it's also about how you live it"-

There comes the Results, There goes the Blood

I looked exactly like her when I think of the results..

Waited eagerly for the outcome and it's finally released at last after a few clicks and the moment of the results flashed out infront of me, I could felt my heart lost the count of beats. Anyway, no more dragging, here's the outcome :

Session	Paper Type	Course	Course Description	Grade	Remarks
200909	Main	AACS1733	INFORMATION TECHNOLOGY & SYSTEMS	C
200909	Main	ABBE1023	MACROECONOMICS	B
200909	Main	ABDM1073	INTRODUCTION TO ORGANISATION & MANAGEMENT	A-
200909	Main	ABFA1023	FUNDAMENTALS OF ACCOUNTING	C-	Resit
200909	Main	AELE2263	ENGLISH FOR COMMUNICATION	A-
200909	Resit	ABFA1013	INTRODUCTION TO ACCOUNTING	C-	Resit

CGPA : 2.7241

Comparing to the previous sem, I showed slight improvement but then it's the feeling of resitting the Accounts that bugs me... Guess I should learn from my friend, inject love into these subjects~

I won't be doing any Resit for this sem because it's a Short Sem, and I'm targeting to rupture 3As from those subjects.

As long there are no involvements of Accounting and Numbers,
I CAN DO IT!!!

We are not the same, that's why, You're special for me..

Everyday frowning about how normal you are and see yourself as a weakling that couldn't change anything to live a better life. Though you may have know you're not a rubbish in the community because those rubbish are already everywhere around the world, but then, you just kept blaming yourself for not being able to contribute anything to the world.

Those thoughts that runs in you are already wrong from the beginning.

Everything that's happening is just meant to be... Same as our very own existence towards the other peoples' life. Simple as that~~ ^^

Simple~!