Sayonara 2009 *Last Post of '09"

First of all, I'll like to wish a very goodbye to the Earth 2009th Birthday as It's getting older one more year as I speak.

Well, I've just done reading JJ's(a.k.a Sifu, a.k.a lui lui) blog and then I just felt very gam dong leh reading it hya hya hya xD. I Blushed at the very same time when I read through it after being praised that way (even though I'm a "Stalking" her) yet still being thanked that way hehe xD. As I said it, Yes~ lui lui, you should know you are one of the angels right hehe xD.

You are very welcome ya!!

As all of you might know, there aren't many great astonishing things occurred to me as the Happiness of mine Come & Go at this very year but then that never make me fall as I had many of you that made me stand back, though not the direct way I expected but then I'm still damn grateful to have all of you by my side.

Meeting most of you was like a dream come true to me. I always realise that, I'm rather close with the girls rather than the guys but that doesn't mean I have no good buddies, I do have but they aren't as close as the girls do hahahaha~ Others will call me a pervert but I'll rather say that "I felt girls need me more than guys does" myahahaha xD.

If there's no satisfaction from my answer, Okay~ I don't mind to be admitted as Pervert or Playboy, as bad as you can think of me. But then if I'm a Playboy, I must say "The God is playing me~"

Happy New Year Everyone Especially:-
1) Joe Jian (a.k.a JJ, a.k.a Sifu, a.k.a Lui Lui, a.k.a Rabbeep)
2) Chubby Jess
3) Xuetly Loo
4) Anne
5) & Any other person who's possibly viewing my blog~!!

Few more days to everything.. eh?

Just had a trip and back on Shah Alam and I think I'll have some pics to upload but then the lazy spirit are possessing me~ I still feel like having fun though my exam is like getting nearer.. nearer and nearer~! Argh!!

While I'm getting tensed up, the others are getting bored as their college/U is going to start soon.. what does that means?! means when I have those sem breaks~~ everyone will eventually be.. UNAVAILABLE again T-T. Sad reality...

By the way, I felt kinda uneasy bout next year.. not really the uneasy feeling... it's because.. as the countdown goes, my clock itself is ticking too~~ xD Nervous maybe?
It's better that those surprises isn't those old school style cause it's always me who suggest those ideas (I'm old school after all). If they would just walk by knowing nothing, I also don't mind de~ Get used to it can already.

And then yet again, Happy Anniversary to all my dearest kem terkok members~!!
Thanks for being there for me during the full 3months of so-called hell. When I think back of it, some of you might be the angels in my life too. Thanks for being so meaningful to my life as my friends!!


*P/S - To those you-know-who, Yeap!! You are my angels!! Yes Angels!! not just one person I'm saying thanks to~~!!

Answer it in your Heart..

You can't be what everyone expected you to be, People will judge you and that's why you have the right to judge too.

Why does people comes in various appearance? Because there are various kinds of personalities and each people resembles their own stand. There will be some that Love and there will be some that Hate.

Some people will always think that you're right, Some people will always think you're wrong, and some people will always support your decision and they know you know what's right and what's wrong. You just need a little bit of confidence to make things right.

When you think you're the worst person ever existed, you're just closing one of your eyes on the others who had been cruel to you.

You can hate the others, but you must never hate yourself for you are meant to be this way and when you start to re-loving yourself, that's when you realise,
"Love comes from heart, not from speech nor brain"

P/S - Always believe in yourself for you're the Wrong and Right at the very same time.

*Dedicated to Sifu, JJ

Heart of Tears

Though the term of "Seeing everyone happy, I'll be Happy" came out from my mouth all the time but when I really feel the part of my heart, I couldn't smile in there. I tend to be a'ight when everyone are mentioning about "the case", I bite my tongue holding back my emotions, I felt suffocating, I felt like crying but I couldn't cry out because I've a tough principle that hold my soul. I just keep biting... I hold out the sadness with my gluttony.

[You have to trust yourself to gain others' trust]

I have this very stand to make me strong, I tried my best to trust myself to ensure my friends would approach me with their sad feelings and by helping them, it'll be a very good way for me to abandon my own feelings. |Caring others makes me felt like I'm caring myself| would be better than |Caring myself more than the others|. By realising everyone had their life adjusted well, I saw my own image again and it's still broken... as if remain untouched.

I couldn't let them know how broken my heart was because if they would know, they would be sad that I felt so helpless in me. I'm sorry, I must be selfish... I must become the biggest liar ever existed throughout my life in order to be normal.

If anyone is wondering why am I typing it here while I want to keep it in my heart. Was it on purpose? To gain attention? To get sympathy? Again and again, I'll just say it, I have nowhere else to pour it out except here, my "private space".

When I witnessed "everything", I could feel my heart tearing apart as if deceased but I would just die far far away from everyone else in order not to ruin their happiness. I'm not trying to be 外大 or to be special among others。This is just me, my personality...

That is why....
*Let Me Help You in order for me to help myself*

Making me Sick of them

I finally remembered why I have so much hatred towards my Secondary School Life... It's because of those peoples like them, those who always take advantage toward the others. Just because they are good on something, they misused their rights toward the weak ones. Their act are making me sick and until this very day, they are still that succumb! I really hate it, HATE IT a LOT!!!
And they dare to come and tell me that I'm Immature?! Have you even ever look in the mirror???

There's no need for me to be patient with you guys anymore, if you want blow it off, I don't mind for it and BRiNG it ON!!

*Frustrated*

Save you like how you Saved me

Horrrr~ after reading JJ's blog for some time~ I was like thinking, "Hey, my sem 2 almost ended, what stories I have for myself?".

I was thinking, thinking and thinking... However, there was none of the good ideas I had in mind about what so good and what so bad about my 2nd sem, things were still the same, Normal.
Though I get to learn more bout a human's personality and I'll stick to those who have been trusted by me. They are reliable and we can help each other, Like a team and I don't expect myself to plunge into the groups of "IDK-then-do-nothing" buffoons anymore.

The Happy part of mine for this moment that is, most of my precious ladies have found their own good lives and I'm so glad seeing them being this happy as they are sipping every single joy in life. It's great for them to find their loved ones and my heart is just waving those silent goodbyes and may their loves be cherished.
So is my buddy, hope you're having your great moments with your First love and may it be the love you'll hold till old.

It's time for me to head back to my own road and walk out. I've a story to write myself about after all.

Deelun is simply LUNatic

The reason why?
Told you I'll be always observing lives without putting me as an exception because I knew it very clearly "I'm not going to walk out of this life, Untested".

So, here it goes, the current report for me:
I felt that, I'm LUNatic because there are peoples who Love(Like) and Hate(Dislike) me at the same time, and I guess it's a reason due to my personality that's "Sometimes Good" & "Sometimes Bad". But any other way, I've never admitted on being both sides anyway because I just want to be Righteous and Injustice.

P/S:- I know it sounded so pathetic as if a child is mumbling to himself a.k.a "Want to make oneself being special" but I can assure you, I'm not the SINGLE person in this community that play this role.

It was merry, but not merry enough

Just had a HIT outing with my PLKN friends yesterday but we weren't able to assemble most of them because as expected that most of our peoples are busy with their own life. Bahh~ I'm not blaming those who couldn't make it because the one who organise it only do it according to the number of availability, and it's like on that time only got certain peoples are free. Worry not my buddies, whenever there's a will, there's a way~ We'll definitely meet again and that I assure you!

To those who made it: Eric, Weng, Vikie, Pink, Vinni(+guardian)~
We had a great day though time was sufficient but meeting you all is what that matters~^^
"Nice meal at Tony Romas"
"Great walk at MidValley"
"A Nice Taste of Starbucks~"

In the meantime, Live well everyone, May the moment we met again, Everyone is in pink health!

Frustrated with me?

Sometimes, when you really hope for something to happen to you and things doesn't go the way you plotted, it's rather disappointing but at the very moment when you tend to put everything away, the wish you made eventually came true. On that very moment, the decision to decide whether to appreciate your wish or take it for granted will be on task. Things weren't suppose to be this complicated, not until you started to think you're giving up.

Similarly, it's always the person I hope to gain attention from doesn't turn to me and it was other unwanted attention that I get. And when people start marking me as a bad guy or saying me changing my personality, they never knew my attitude changed is because of their attitude that ruined my mood. Everything have a limit, so am I. Some may think it's because of the "cover" that I'm being sarcastic but for some that know me very much, they'll know I'm the type that concern bout heart fillings.

You think I'll give a damn about the way you pest my personality?! If you dare to say me wrong, you better prove that you're right.

P/S - Who told you I'm a good person to start with? I never admit nor deny and I just let the majority to show me the truth of myself.

If...

Honestly, I guess that no matter how many chance I'll be give to drag back the time and remake some mistakes I've done in my life...
I wouldn't want to remake anything or should say, I doesn't want to go back to the past at all even if miracles might happen.
Because, it was the past that form my present and this will be the ME that create the "Yet-to-come".
What's done, is done. Only things you can do, that's to make it a better change

Not Brave, just Bored

Last Tuesday 24th November '09
I had my second attempt for blood donation and this time was so much easier and I even observe every single process of it.
Can say that it's damn cool to see how they use the needle and pump in the air into your hand and then using a straw-like metal to suck your blood out.
Just like drinking my blood out from me~
I felt like a thousand bucks right now since my blood has been renewed.
Can't wait for the next blood donation kekeke xD

Fade... Fading... Faded

It's such a tiring week man~!!
All this works is crazy, I wonder who invented Account, meant to be easy?
Somehow, it's making my life hard right now damnit~
Lecturers, Tutors all thought that we've studied this in secondary school and they teach us at the perception as if we've understood everything, come to a point, most of us was blank.

I do blame myself for being lazy too, and 80% is my fault for not putting effort. That's before this, I'm sensing chances for improvements, I guess this is it. Prove the damn shit nothing beats me.

Next, I had a "Love" issue with my classmate Lynn~ Since she's so bored and wanna be my temporary "Girlfriend", well, her wish come true when I agreed the request she made in FACEBOOK.
She had a boyfriend already and yet she's making me her "BF" in FACEBOOK, she thought it'll be fun but I've smelt problem from far but since it's her request and her decision, I don't mind.
Then, her boyfriend found out, unhappy, she scared, I smiled and took back the status to be single. (After all, I'm still waiting passionately to love and beloved)


Conclusion : Someone would pick me as a boyfriend, that means I'm not half-bad after all~ xD

P/S - Sorry Lynn for the fuss, thanks for picking me up though, you can just put down a'ight =P
Play with fire, causes dire~

Tiring as it is

As usual, there's not a day my stupid head is not think of something... The past just keep spurting out to me. Once again I realised, how selfish I had been.
When I think and think again and again about all of these, I saw my own foolishness. I didn't see it the way I'm seeing it last time, it was my fault. I'm sorry, I doesn't know why I'm giving out the moral yet I've done it in the past.. What am I doing? Is it really too late for me to realise this all, is there not a chance I could fix it?

Through many people's advice and agreement, I've tried to feel better when one of the most precious thing I had in heart was gone. They say it wasn't my fault that I shouldn't bear it in heart.
Somehow, right now, when I try to see it through another angle, I realised, I might not be the victim... Maybe she was too, I never realise that...until now..

I'm so pathetic at this state right now... I see why friends are so important for some persons.. Why I never get to notice that... Was it because I never felt that warmth until now? I know how she felt, and I think I understand... but... everything, is still not happening the way it should be..
What should I do now?

What's done is done...I wake up now and I'm seeing clearer things about my SIN.. Does that change anything? What should I do...? I'm going to start and turn over a new leaf once again... See how things work out...

P/S - I know that, I these days always sounded so emo, but, I'll just say thanks for reading, I just want to speak out for my heart. I want to make a change... I really want to...

New Face, New Appearance??

A'ight today just went to have my face surgery(?), so-called surgery because I went to fix fix my troublesome pimples that seems to be worsen. The 1 hour being there is like... face stabbing man.
Now, my face is damn red, all those pimples had been clear out and I suffered for quite long leh.

But hopefully it'll turn out to be good once my face recovered. I rely to my face to find salary de mah xD.

In the mood to go for the prom night on 29th Nov~!!

So, What's Love for me?

If based on my recent post, I said that, if I treat you nice, doesn't mean I'm in love.
So, what does it takes to people to know that I'm in love with them??
Well, don't figure out how I'll fall in love, that's the best answer I could give.
I know it's like I've said nothing for all this but it's the truth.
Sometimes I do play the role of Love Doctor(ineffective as it may be) but to be honest, I myself doesn't even know what's Love...

I just know... Love is a many many stupid things. It makes you go mad, it makes you lost, it makes you know what's pain and what's agony.
However, the most important of all about love that is... For me... I just want to see the person I love to live happily be it with or without me. Mostly without me though, a number of them had left me and I see they are better off without me and some, I just silently pour love in shadow, not because I'm a coward to not confess... I just know what I'm doing.

¿LUNatism? - Be it I might be in Stygian or Luminous, hesitant can trust me, for I have the slight virtue to avail.

P/S - I know all this sounded like plain white lies, somehow, I've said it, I'll try to do it with all my might~ This, I promise myself to do so!

Know what you should know

It was just recently that I get to hear a shocking news that's related to me.
While in the middle of assignment discussion, this one friend of mine(PP), suddenly talked bout personal perception and it's me, PP was talking about.
The question PP asked me was rather weird that's
"What's wrong with you?" "Why are you so weird?" "I think you have attitude problem" & many more which make me like kinda doubt what is happening.
Then, PP asked me that "Will you be hurt if I tell you something harsh?".
When PP said that, it really got into my interest that someone is finally willingly to stand up to tell me what's my problem.

Guess what? PP was asking me "There's someone that dislike you, you know?", then I just reacted the usual way "I don't find it weird cause I don't expect to be liked by everyone" and out of wondrous, I asked "Who's that? WW? ZZ? XX?".

With my psychological questioning, I get to know who's the person that's disliking me.
A'ight.... QUIZ TIME~!!! Guess what's the reason I'm being disliked by that person (A girl).


Ding Ding Ding....
The reason that is...
She(XX) thinks I'm in love with her because I keep playing with her and XX thought that I knew she was single that's why I keep playing with her~!!
You wouldn't know how surprised I am when I heard PP told me this.
Look, I played with almost everyone in the class and everyone knows that I'm not that close with PP and I'm rather much more closer with some other girls. I treat them like brothers and sisters. The worst thing that is, I didn't do full direct contact with XX at all~!! I didn't sms, didn't chat, didn't do nothing except playing with them in the class.

Out of nowhere, I was misunderstood by her that I was in Love with her?! Oh Come on!!!
If just a few kind of foolish act I did on you, doesn't mean I'm in love ok~!! Even CC also told me, "I think you're much more closer with DD compare to XX, I don't know why XX will think that way..."

At the end, I asked PP again... "So, what's was my problem then?", Then PP said "No ar, nothing wrong, you're just 小气 sometimes...."
Frankly speaking, I only 小气 on certain people.
Any other way, I'll set a barrier from XX to ensure no more misunderstanding then.

P/S - Not because I treat you good means I want your love, this is my way of Gentleman ok~!!

Dull...

I enter the competition with a heart that's not so willingly but I still try my best as what I've promise that I'll do. With slight expectation, I won the first round easily but right now, things are getting tougher and tougher that I think I might get crazy out of it. Pidato? Me? Standing in front crapping words? LoL... I bet the me in my past wouldn't believe that this will happen.

That's what I want for me myself, being unpredictable in the future. I never see how things go, I just want to feel how everything end. What brings me to this? Faith.. AGAIN.

A promise is a promise, I promised you, I'll try my best to achieve the dream. Though there's no guarantee for forever. I shall never give up no matter what and of course, you yourself shouldn't be giving up too. This faith of mine, will always be a gift to you because I want to save you out from the dark to never be like me.

Always know what you want for your life. Things might be complicated, but if it isn't complicated, you'll never know how a good life feels like~ Right?

Sayuri Sugihara - Kimi ga Irukara (Because of you)

Up, up, Away!!

I can't deny it, the movie, UP is really like the best animation of the year I've watched.
The story is damn inspiring and I'm so loving the theme soundtrack (Married Life). It's really a creative and touching heart kind of soundtrack. I'm really satisfied watching it. I even felt so touched seeing how this stories ended. Though of course stories usually ended with happy ending, but this ending is really special.... Wow, come to think of it...
All this still end with the word LOVE.

It's the kind of story that tells me how Love can change up one's life.
I'll never give up my Love even if I have to give away everything.. I know all these are words, but if I dare to say it... I'll use the all of me to ensure my words come real. I'm a Man of my words~!

After having some conversation with a friend of mine, I realised that Love can sounded so unreal. "If it's love, why there's tears of sadness?" I asked this question for her.
You know what, one day, when you really see the Real Love, it won't be this.
What makes me so sure? Because I believe it, I believe Love won't be just merely sacrifices for happiness. It's Miracles that brings Love, Not Love Brings Miracles.

That's why, I'll bring you to this song... This is it by Michael Jackson (Loving it!!)

Ready as Always!!

Alright, few days of being busy and unable to online really does pissing me off these days. LoL, I never thought internet could gave such a big impact to part of my life. I, myself, are surprised too when I couldn't online..
Somehow, the time gave me some space to breath and control my feelings..
Now, everyday when I go for a swim, I'll try to do meditation in the pool.. Letting my thoughts to be flowed away.

That's why... I'm back. I've retrieved my tranquility. It's time to travel back to my mission.

1) To bring happiness and Serenity to those who are in needs.

Though I know, I'm not much of a person to give protection and calmness to a person, I'll try whatever that's possible for me to help one person. For sure, I'm not going to easily giving up on my beliefs..

At least, for once in my life... I know... What's right... What's wrong...
P/S - I don't mind you giving up on me, but I'll try to hold you from giving up your Faith!

Mirror With Broken Simper

A fool's paradise that's insurmountable, A verisimilitude that's melancholic, An euphoria that's vacuous, A person that's exasperate of whole enchilada, A denouement of élan vital

P/S - I'm lost in blue again, I just need to see that... that very smile again...

Abandon All Hope

*Emo Alert*
Do I never learn to help myself when myself is in need...?
I'm too harden that I never wanted to get help.
Someone is willing to lay their hand but... it's not the hand I want to hold.
I'm full of greed and eclectic.
And look where I ended up of being....

All
Alone
Hectically.

Abandon
All
Hope.

I know I'm not alone here being alone... I just...same like anyone would be...just tired..

CTRL+ALT+DEL

I'm hoping to establish a whole new reset in my life to put everything back to rest and try it again.
I've been acting much more weird these days, I realised it.. I've frighten everyone around me..
I'm not sure what I'm becoming either... This... This darn feeling...
I just can't stop hating myself these days..I don't know what I wanted...
Love?
Study?
Friends?
Families?

The more I think about it, the more ridiculous it get.
That's why, I'm going to put everything to a full stop. Stop the growth of myself... Fight for what I have...
Love can wait I guess... Sad but true... WAIT!!!

Are you ready?

This friend of mine, Potato....(yes Potato~) asked me one very funny thing.
"Why you always keep problems in your heart?"
The rather quite same thing my housemate Weixiang asked me...
Some times, I know I do seems like having a lot of problems in my life and I tend to keep it all..
Maybe some of you might think it's because I'm trying to stay away from you all or I'm being selfish for not telling out my problems. Somehow, that's not it...

When I always felt like telling my problems out to one trusted person...
I recalled what "she" had said to me when I told "her" my problem...
"Even if you tell me, I can't do anything to help you"
It's the sentence that put me to a helpless thought...
"She" was right in some sense...

But I do things different, I wanted to be always here, to listen to anyone's problems, though I might not be helpful, I'll try what's possible, though I'm not good in advising but I ain't letting anyone important to me to be sad.

That's me~ ¿LUNatism?

You've took away my 心跳

王力宏 - 心跳

Sad is sad... it's still.. pathetic..

Okay, I'm going to announce my "be-hiao-paiseh" de results for my first semester liao..
It might sound shocking for some of you, but then I've predicted this will happen and kept my fake hope underneath my brain for the "just in case" but truth is truth... I sucks in the first sem...
Like they say, "The first will always be the hardest". Alright, I've sipped the taste of college life, it's time to stay focus, if before this I did focus, now.. I should Focus more!!

Results:
Microeconomics : B+ (DARN!! I was expecting A!!)
Hubungan Etnik : B+ (Same sad case.....A!!!!!!)
English : B+ (My teacher is telling the truth, it's almost impossible to A...)
Introduction to Accounting : D (Expected sucks....)
Quantitative Studies : D (Hoped for pass... but still~)

Well...well... well.... What can I say... it's not over yet...
I shall put more effort to find my Beloved one... if not, I won't have the inspiration to study hard...(sounds like excuse... or maybe it's exactly an excuse..) Well, I just hate lonely~!!
Be wise in study, think twice for love~!

Everything is SPINNING

Why am I so BORED?!!!
I need something, someone, anything, or anyone to kill my boredom please~!!
I'm trying my best finishing all the works, then all that left for me...
Rot~ T-T If only I could get the right timing to go out.... sigh~~~ When I ok, other's not ok, when I not ok, everyone's ok... LoL Clashes of luck, nevermind, I'll continue to wait.....
WAIT~~~~~~
T-T

Touch my hand to tell me you're not far

Aya Hirano - Hoshi No Kakera

A tale in Starbucks Coffee

Yet again, this is another attempt of me creating an essay that I've never try before.
So, I hope this will be helpful to you, sifu (JJ~) xD

I took a step by another step walking to my destination, in my mind, I’ve setup my whole purpose and there’s no nothing that could stop me from travelling this path. This whole thing was like a journey to me, I knew a lot about this place and it’s under my understanding that this destination had been part of my haven already. I stood up in front of this Café and took a look at the lively greenery coloured logo which bears the soothing sensation that roams around it.

Somehow, something is making me hesitating of entering this haven, is it because that my heart is not ready for this surprise of joy? Or it is because I’m overexcited that this will be another moment for me to gleam every single moment I have stayed in there? Any other way, I’m not going to let this slight hesitation blocks away my whole effort of walking out from my home sweet home of this far just to pass by this Café without leaving a remnants of memory in there. That’s why; I’m making my way into that Café. The first thing of all that menus I had been looking on doesn’t seems really matters to me because my eyes had been highlighting on that item on the menus that is none other than the Caramel Frappuccino or should said that I’ve been longing and having a high expectation over it that even before I take a good look at the menu, I could already smell out the scent of the sweet divine.

There’s a moment of pause that I passed by the cold glasses of machine that holds many miracles inside it, yes, all the wonderful mouth-watering desserts are hidden within it and I couldn’t even imagine that I’m just a few centimeters away from all of it and they are shielded by just a slide of glass away from me. I controlled my drools and further making my steps to the counter. As the waitress was smiling at me and asking me the usual routine what-would-you-like questions, all I could see is her mouth moving and slight echoes entering my ears. As I’m not going to blurred out again, I made my wish that cost me not less than RM15.

I took my lovely made ice blended Caramel Frappuccino and have a sit on the corner of the Café. As soon as I have a sit on the warm cushion, the smooth classical music entertained my body and it was a feeling like no others can give it to me. I was so into the music as if I’m being drowned in joy, and without much more of thinking, I opened my bag and took out all my stationeries and any other necessary things that I’ll need to create my fantastic legacy of environments for my assignments in this very place.

From the very beginning, I knew it that this will be the place my ideas and inspiration doing the dance around in my mind. This is the best place like no other place could grant me the rehabilitation for me. It’s like a haven meant to exist for me to create a small paradise through my arts. Each time when I’m in need, I’ll just take the sip of the ice shards in the cup and let the wondrous scent of caffeine reach my tongue and deliver the grand sensation to my brain, it’s enhancing and giving me the morale to move on for each sip I took through the symbolic green-coloured straw. This place really does makes it all for me and that logo of it will always stay remarked in my heart though some other people might not see or feel what I feel in this place, somehow, it’s the measure of satisfaction I could have here that matters. The name of this place is none other than the angelic beautiful carved name on the signboards; Starbucks Coffee.

P/S- I think the effect looks better if you put the picture at the bottom part, because this will make it looks more suspending xD

DBU Group 15 on the MOVE

For the 2nd time I guess I had our Group 15 class trip, (the first time was rather only a few people after all...).
Like what Kanex(our class rep) told us that our class had been rather "cold" these days due to less communication, all we do in class just stays in the class as it would be. We rather not express ourselves at outside, so, here we try to make it possible to have fun together.
Made a plan > Discuss > Choice > Make it possible
Though as expected, not many of them could make it, well, what to do, most of them are from other state, they'll prefer to back to their home sweet home.
Luckily, some of them are still willing to stay after all.
Had fun in the karaoke and they thought I couldn't sing?
Told you already, don't guess me, I'm not what I look like ahahahaha.
I admit I sing it wrongly, well who cares? I pay to sing and you expect me to stay behind there drinking and watching you all sing?? That's not Deelun's way kekeke~!!

One of the best part that is, I sang "Stayin' Alive" and "Boom Boom Pow", they couldn't catch the fast rhythm but I did kyahahahahaha.
Too bad there's no Naitomea songs in there, else, I'm singing it on the spot already T-T






Later on, travel to Times Square to watch this Totally-Lame movie entitled Chaw (Man-eating Boars...Pig...). Due to many clashes of ideas... So, we just simply picked a movie and enter the cinema at once. I wasn't giving any good expectation for this show at all. This was the first movie ever that I've walked out of it to go toilet because normally I'll just hold it but I really can't take it anymore and rather concede to nature's call.
Anyway, at the end of the day, it's still fun hanging out with them ahahaha~ It's better than just leaving everything dull from beginning till end right, We'll be classmates for 2 years if everything is possible after all~

The Story of a LiL GirL (Dedicated to JJ)

First of all, Yeap, I'm going to write a story..(barely a description) about this person I know and could say one of my best friend~ To any other friends of mine, don't eat vinegar alright, it's just a slight favor I'm trying to do to help her in her essays.

The title bears it all, I'm going to tell it all out of the angle I can see of her through this picture...

Kekekeke, JJ please don't hit me (*piak piak* aiyak~) xD, #It's not me who captured the photo k~!!#
Ladies and men~ yeap, this is the lady that I'm talking about.
Her name is Joe Jian,Lee, one of the person who's in '91 that is older than me kekeke.
Based on her uniform, I could shorten the story that she's my camps-mate~
Alright, here's the picture that I'm suppose to describe a'ight.


*Here goes*
There's many thing to be told according to this picture of this lady, when people says that one pictures shows thousand words, from what I can see of this lady through my eyes, she have more than a thousand words to be describe. Rather than me spitting out every single words of it, it’s better to summarize it all once and for all.

No need for formality of how I should derive, and I need not to know others' opinion of what they can see through the picture of her because all I can tell out that is, she's been through a huge changes ever seen we waved our goodbye at 11th March '09. Once she was a girl with spectacles that makes me tagged her as a nerdy person as she used to roam around with a book by her side. Somehow, like what people always said, never judge a book by its cover, she was far and much further from being a nerd. A girl who can smile through hard days even though, there are sometimes she get real tired and wondered about life. It's undeniable that the days dwelling at the National Service camp is not easy at all but it's because there's someone like Joe Jian that bring about changes, she shows the spirits for people to move on, she incurred the charisma to tell the others everything is going to be fine, and she bears the enthusiasm to see the days of camp to fade on.

She's absolutely right when it comes to this matter, there's no point of giving up everything you had just because you're in a situation that you disliked, and we can't get everything we want in our life just exactly how we hoped for it. Effort is needed to earn wings of good results and this is part of her great personality. She gave surprises to those who don’t know her well she got me startled most of the times when I knew her the first few weeks. Joe Jian managed to be the reason why some of us need to live on this life with purpose and to never let it waver because that's the way she do things the way it should be. Some people would say that she's a stubborn person for she hardly concedes to life, but some will see her as a fighter in life.

Although, there are no such things as perfect personality that exists in life, she does have some flaw in herself but it's never inadequate to have some glitch. People do make mistakes throughout their life, somehow, what matters the most that is the willingness of them to make a change through it. Joe Jian do hope that some time she could just be as free as others to break the law and hug herself to abandon every responsibility she bears just like some of them who's oblivious towards their trustworthiness, but she's just different, she's just meant to be someone who can prove righteous. It's because of this so-called burden that she needs to bear that makes her who she is of today. Just like the light that shines through the darkness with brimming radiance.


P/S - JJ, there's 535 words in this essay, well, there's no doubt I'm sure that you'll need to alter this disquistion, it might sounded too normal and not eye-catching. Well, I just write out what I have in mind about you. So, if there's any weird mistakes or you find it out that this is not the aspect you've wanted, feel free to tell me bout it a'ight. Because I'm also trying to learn to do descriptive essays and I'm not sure whether am I running out from the topics, it's my first time doing this kind of essays after all, so, your comment would be appreciated alright~ xD

Blind Romance?

Are you the one I'm waiting for?! Please tell me you are!! Because I'm getting impatient already hehehe~
Let Time Lead Me for I shall never Surrender.
Let Pain be my strength because I'll never give in.
Certainly, Undoubtedly, I guess this feelings can be told someday,
If I save you and you save me and if everything come true,
There would not be anything to be regret, right?
Certainly, undoubtedly, till that moment, I will be healed by you.

A reason for an act...

Bored...
Somehow, today I did have an interesting chatting with my friends at College.
Kekekeke, talked bout 2012~
Some(Most) of them seems to get really worried about the end of the world..
Well, I tend to ask myself "Am I trying to act as if I'm not scared at all while my heart is shrinking when I know the world is coming to an end??".
Sometimes, some people just want to show others that they are brave but they are just couldn't bare to lose to themselves in their heart (not referring to anyone..).
Somehow... I know it clearly myself that I'm really preparing for what's going to happen on me myself.
Jeffrey(classmates) said he was not ready for all this, still young, many things to do, get married, spread legacy and doing many more. Things that people would like to lead through their life, infinite happiness.
Not to say I doesn't want those days, who doesn't pray for that every single day??
However, if things are meant to happen, it will happen no matter what, isn't it?
Truth is always cruel, Reality is always unrealistic.

I really didn't think of how this world will end.. Maybe because I have faith that I'll live through it? I just believe it..
Like I say, Live your life to the fullest every single day and Cherish it. The next days will be no regrets.

I guess all that left for me, is to pour my love and watch it grow and me myself grow along with it.
Because I'm looking for the chance to spread my legacy too after all~!!

P/S- Live well everyone, Whether time is running out or not, Let's live our lives to the fullest alright!!

Time to burn the fats!!

I guess that most of you wouldn't believe what I've been doing these days at my new house at Melati Utama. Kyahahahaha~ just like what I've stated in the title, yeap, I'm doing back my exercising activity after so long (since I broke my stupid hand~). Well, not really some rough exercise, just do some swimming almost an hour everyday~ and then today more than that... came back from college and then straight go to swimming... Then come back up, Ah Put(my housemate) says that he wants to go for gym~
Well, since I'm not that tired (why not~?). So, straight away head to the gym with the guys and amazed by those utilities at the gym there..(never been to gym before after all).
I just do some jogs, cycling stuff, weighing steels and some other stuff... Just to realise after a while, my sweat bath my clothes...
Just similar to a hippopotamus.
Anyway, I'll just try to do more and get fit.
Since now so "Shuai" already with my hair getting longer~ I wouldn't mind to get my body shape look better Kyahahahahaha~

P/S - don't vomit blood, I'm doing self-"an wei"~ T-T